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Quientry 01

2012-01-04T15:25:00.000-08:00

Quientry – Quickie Entry

A fast, short post for my blog with “less” (hopefully) words than the usual; mostly random thoughts.

• I dreamt the other day of a Harry Potter world (again) Dumbledore, from the 1st movie was talking to me asking me to do something and go inside the castle.

• The other day, we were somewhere unfamiliar in Manila with my family and my mom was lined up for something. I asked her what the line is for and asked if it was for her PASSPORT. She said it’s not and when I looked it was. She was so shy of her getting caught lying while I was crying my heart out and turned to my sister and told her crying and screaming at the top of my lungs “Nagisisnungaling si mommy?! (“Mom was lying!”).” Next thing I know was I was with my sister with our things packed in lug gages in a tricycle and we went off. WEIRD

• DA WHO! I asked this guy, “Di mo ba ako namimiss?” he didn’t reply, and was evading me. I bade goodbye and was zombie mode going to the office, hurt by what happened. A couple of hours later I read a text from him, “Of course I missed you.” WAHHHHH!! KILIG!

• I “promised” to write more in my journal and during my lunch, I went to write a couple of entries, and when I was about to start writing something on Jan 1, 2012, I backtracked and started writing on the space of December 26, 2011. Damn, I have to write all the other things that’s happening and I have to do it fast before my short term memory loss strikes again!

• I said to my tweeter friends that I might soon take shots of me topless so that I’ll be able to see the work I’ve done last December where I worked out 3times a week. However, due to lack of funds this week, my wasn’t in good shape so I have to postpone it again.

Fluid

2012-01-03T15:43:00.001-08:00

I told myself I’ll be blogging more and since it was quite busy during the past few days of the new year in the office, I’ll start with this.

I don’t know if everyone of you got a hold of the news when I posted in my social netowriking sites that I’m officially single. (Gasp! Large huge widened eyes, some will cover their mouth, some will go omgee, I get it.) yep, Husband decided to call it quits, and next will be the question why. It’s a little more complicated that that and I don’t want to complicate things here but you know what; the good thing is we’re both fine. We’re still living together, we’re still texting, I’m still texting his mom and his mom still keeps on texting me and I still got my Christmas gift from her too! A quick history on what happened though, after we celebrated our 3 day celebration for our 3 year anniversary last December 16-18, he then talked to me Monday after we ate dinner at Mang Inasal. That’s what I love about him, honest frank no beating around the bush. I actually thought he was joking and I told him if it wasn’t a joke that no I won’t agree to it. Thursday came and he went with me to my cousin’s wedding as I also invited his mom (practicing photography)to go with us. On the bus, I missed the times I keep on making him laugh with my funny antics; I still have the power to so I’m still good, I can’t stop not holding his hands but he keeps on shoving it away; of course, he can’t resist my pa-cute effect so he gave in. Everyone thought things were normal. Then weekend came and I was still asking HIM for a sign and he did gave me one; HE somewhat talked to me so I decided to give husband’s freedom.

"Yawn-eeeng"

oh yeah!! I can still make you smile!!!

Jeff's beautiful mom and his beautiful A/X bag. lol

A week ago before New year, he still don’t know what to give tita(his mom) and lolo for their gifts and we were texting, and it felt fine. No feelings of anger or anything, I asked him, we’re good right? Yep we’re good. He answered back. That’s what I was thinking and thanking God for; being fluid about things. A friend of mine told me once, “I hope people would live and think fluidly; no judgments, no assumptions, and no condemnation.” I would agree wit what he said if I knew what he was talking about, and then he added “I have lesbian friends that eventually got married to guys and married men who eventually turned out to be gay and the people around them accepted with who they are.” I remembered a famous lesbian in UPLB who got married to a guy and I was surprised to see her with a baby already. People know that we know each other and that time they asked me, wasn’t she a lesbian? I didn’t have an answer that time. Now I understand about people just being fluid about these things.

People were all saddened with what happened to us and I can’t blame them; we can’t throw away 3 years of love; but just like energy Love is just there, either transferred or changed. We still love each other, we just chose not THAT way, when people break up and still stays as friends; that’s love changing, if they fell in love with another one after that’s love being transferred, if they hate each other still the same; because when you get mad or angry at someone; that means you still have love for them; because you still care, because you still feel angry, you still feel emotions. I'll leave you something that was left to us by our Reverend Ken Martin from MCC Main that keeps us humbled; Romans 13:8 tells us "...for whoever loved others has already fulfilled the law."

I assured everyone that right now, husband and I aren’t husband-housebands anymore but both of us were honest enough to admit that we love each other; though not just the same way as before. Just a brand new way and we’re both happy with that. Fluid. I talked to him last Monday and asked if we’re still gonna push through with the Amazing Race Philippines; he said yes.

From this...

to this....

What's one way of torturing somebody without having to kill him/her?

2011-12-22T08:46:00.001-08:00

stare using my uncomfortable stare

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Who's your favorite superhero?

2011-12-22T08:45:00.001-08:00

Dennis aka Youko Kurama of Ghost fighter

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Porn: educational or purely for entertainment?

2011-12-22T08:30:00.003-08:00

entertainment

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What's the most disgusting thing you have ever eaten and why?

2011-12-22T08:30:00.001-08:00

fertilizer, when i was a kid, i saw a sack, i thought it was rice...

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What's the craziest thing you Googled?

2011-12-22T08:29:00.001-08:00

hahaha!! OMG. creampie! Blame it to my colleagues!

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There's this new habitable planet (similar to earth) called Kepler B-22. Given the chance to travel there, come back, and start a new empire, how are you going to rule?

2011-12-22T08:28:00.001-08:00

king and king! lol.

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Would you have the tendency to forget that you can't swim if you see some kid drowning in the pool? (Suppose you really can't swim)

2011-12-22T08:27:00.001-08:00

yes... I'd stupidly jump in the pool as well and flap my arms like I can fly. lol

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Do you Google yourself often?

2011-12-22T08:26:00.003-08:00

*raises hand* guilty

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Do you ever fish for compliments?

2011-12-22T08:26:00.001-08:00

In a subliminal way;yes

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a post

2011-10-23T03:43:00.000-07:00

I haven’t posted here for the longest time, a while ago, while waiting for my name to get called for a check up, I was typing something, but then again, it was too soon.

July 3 was my last post and from what my record shows, July 10 was an unfinished blog entry where I was about to post the 1 year anniversary celebration of the book launch for Migs, E and Mcvie (rhyme!)

Anyway, this post will be a very long one, my apologies, but I just want everything to be here when I go back to reminisce when I’m old. So please bear with me, my long post and grammatical lapses(even if I know you’ve been bearing my long posts… hehehe).

Let me start where I left off; July. Other than the mentioned above, July was also the month where I was stressed out with our new teacher (yes, I won’t EVER call him professor) in my Graduate School where he was a total…. I don’t even want to put *THAT* term here. I decided to drop his subject and one day, when I woke up, decided to stop my school and look for another one; another Graduate School that’s not that *toot* as my current one.

I was able to celebrate my friend's despedida by watching with him a concert Dos Bravissimos concert by UST Singers and APZ Tone Tomsic or rather we call the University who we can't name! Haha!!

Reeka, Me and Rick

One of the foreign singers. BENTA si KUYA!

August
The only highlight that happened during the month of August was my allergy kicked in again, in which case any medicine or strong antibiotics (the 500 per box 3pcs kind) won't do. I was then scheduled for hospitalization around 3rd week and what I love about my doctor was he also listens to the patients. Everybody was worried why I need to be admitted but for me; it was the perfect way to have a vacation. Thanks to our hometown hospital with WIFI, I wasn't bored. IT was the perfect vacation, that didn't end well; my netbook then got busted. When I got back to work, it was again my first day last day. Thursday night, I checked my mails and smiled widely with what I saw...

A fine dandy e-mail to kill burnout.

September was one heaven and hell month for me. Heaven because I was able to do training again for the 5th batch or aka Wave 5 for our department. This time, 3 girls and a guy. Oh the hell part. I haven’t blogged/posted anything about the scam that our condo building was doing with us. This time, for 3 months and more, there were NO electricity and water. Electricity was only provided at night, and you have to pay 50php for the generator, plus, it only provides around 4-6 hours of electricity and that goes for the water too, it was only available also at night. Husband was a bit lucky since he’s able to experience electricity at home, while I don’t get the chance to. People were wondering where I stayed, lucky for me, my company has shower area that’s available for use. I was wondering if the manong guards are suspicious why I’m ALMOST 24/7 at the office and seen only with changed clothes. One of the advantages of “living” in the office was I don’t get late, my savings were big since I don’t have to go ANYWHERE, and I have more time to rest and prepare since being a trainer, you have to at least come before your shift an hour earlier to prepare. Then every other day, I went home to change and bring clothes. I was actually teasing my colleagues whenever they ask me where am I going and where I came from; I’ll point to our sleeping quarters and tell them “My room.”

One of the good things about September was the photoshoot for Love Yourself Project. Husband actually don’t want to go as it was beyond our budget, but I asked him as a favor for my birthday that I want to. I also would like to thank Ian since I was just actually asking fro 2 couple shots, but they still managed to do separate shots and extra couple shots! I was literally screaming like a girl when I saw the pictures. This was to give way for our title “Husband and Houseband” caption. I also was happy since they were professional enough to follow the deadline they set.

Winner sa Caption!

Another was the 20th anniversary of our Church MCCPH-Makati that was held in Grand Opera Hotel near Doroteo Jose LRT Station. I was surprised to see lots of celebrities and important people in the LGBT industry (too bad I wasn’t one of the officers as I could’ve asked an invitation for the bloggers) . I also was looking forward for boy Abunda to be there but he wasn’t.I heard that the invitation came to him late.

The gorgeous couple Sam and Krissy with another errr.. couple Koie and Me!

Another celebration that happened was our 2nd year Anniversary from our work at Canada-Fraud. I can't believe time went by just like yesterday and it was already two years that went by. Some already left, some stayed, some joined, but whatever happens... We will always be the team that everybody longs for! Haha!

October

I can’t believe this will be my birth month and I’ll hate this month. I thought that September was the worst, but I was wrong. The first 2 weeeks was hell. I was just out of my mind. First there were the overbreaks, then there were sick leaves, and no more bonus for the month and “failed” stats for September.

Moving on, I’d rather be smiling with the happy moments during this month. My nephew’s christening from my playboy brother; Maverick Allan. The trip going to Sto Domingo Church, QC wasn’t pleasant either as I had a petty fight with my mom. In the end, it went well with the Buffet at the Reception and trip to Trinoma with my cousin.

Maverick Allan

Sorry for the blurry pic...

Then, for the past few days, MCC and TLF were giving seminars and I was able to attend some of those since TLF’s topic was about Sexuality and Spirituality, then a week after for MCC, where they have their Elders from the US came here and gave seminars about Leadership Retreat for two days (checked in at Holiday Inn, Ortigas! Yebah!), and last Tuesday, Sexuality and Spirituality too. The said seminars were led by Rev. Ken Martin, REv. Stedney Phillips and Ptr. Terri Echelberger. MCCPH-Makati, MCC Metro Baguio and MCC QC participated in the said event.A friend of mine was inviting me to join the “Love Yourself Project” movement, but before I do, I’d like to make sure I’m equipped with the knowledge, information and wisdom, not just to help out in counseling but also to provide spiritual counseling as well.

MCCPH-Makati with the elders.

There! That summarizes around 3months of no blog...

I’m still looking forward for the next couple of months before the year ends. There were lots of things to celebrate, even if there are lots of things to be sad about. There is a need to change in mindframe and this one needs a big CHANGE.

In addition, I might post more pictures, less details, more like a photoblog inspired by Nimmy! Ang dyosa ng photoblog! hehehe and Raha who created her own photoblog.

How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?

2011-09-15T04:56:00.001-07:00

1 to 1 hour and a half

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Are you a morning person or evening person?

2011-08-30T07:02:00.001-07:00

nocturnal; born and raised.

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If you were asked for your last request 5 minutes before your death (with the exception of not dying) what would you say?

2011-07-31T19:29:00.001-07:00

Pioloooo! Hahahaha!!!

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What's your favorite thing to cook?

2011-07-30T08:22:00.001-07:00

PASTA!

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when was the last time you cried and why?

2011-07-25T19:38:00.003-07:00

HP7; for obvious reasons

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How long could you last without your mobile phone?

2011-07-25T19:38:00.001-07:00

4 seconds

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Casual Conversations; Work Edition; office chat

2011-07-03T12:41:00.000-07:00

I miss posting casual conversations, so here’s one that I really think that’s nice and naughty…

A friend and colleague of mine was so bored that SHE started a chat session. I was surprised that she was an old friend of Sheenah.

Ji : Hi ctc? lol

Vondraye: hahaha!

Ji : sounds family? lol. gimik naman tayo sa elbi(Los Baños)... tayo nina sheenah (Sounds familiar? let's go to Los Baños and have fun with Sheenah)

Vondraye: lol. goodluck, gawa kayo ng pang 8 araw para pwede ako .hahaha!! wala nako rest day eh. (Make an 8th day fo the week so I can be free that day, I don't have any more rest day.)

Ji : ako rin nGa eh. hehehe (Me too)
gusto ko na nga mag-vl... kaso 2 na lang natitirang vl ko. hehehe (I want to go on Vacation Leave, however I only have 2 left.)

Vondraye: ahaha!! sana talaga 8 araw ng linggo at 30 hrs ng isang araw... sigh. (I really wish we have 8 days a week with 30 hours per day)

Ji : kulang na kulang ang off eh. ahaha (We really lack days off)

Vondraye: i knerr!! dapat may jerjer day talaga! Hehehe (I know, there should be S_x day!)

Ji : VL = Vanatan Leave. ahaha

Vondraye: aylaveet!!!

Ji : PL = P***** leave. SL = S** Leave .

Vondraye: hahahahA!! sobrang aylavet!

2011-07-03T11:31:00.000-07:00

I don’t have the push to post it, whenever I start typing(an entry) during Sundays, I end up blog hopping, reading posts, open Microsoft Word, Type, then sleep, then I’d realize it’s the end of my shift.

I just want to take a moment of this day to at least mention what I learned these past few days.

Spiritual
Friday, after my grueling training at the gym(since I wasn't feeling that well), I went to Megamall for a mass. It was cold; and funny that I got it too. In no time, my nose was like a faucet, dripping like water. I have tissue in my hand to sweep off the watery being in my nose; almost every 30 seconds. I need to take my meds, but I have to eat first, and it was already too late so I just went inside the church, I was surprised because the mass starts at 6,but there was already the priest in front, I was so confused I just sat and listened; there was a celebration of the Sacred Heart, that’s why. After 15 minutes the real mass started. I loved the homily as it was about lifting your burdens to HIM, but on the side, he also shared a story about Catholics being choosy when it comes to priests. HE said that we should be praying for them(priests) too, not choosing the best priest and their homilies. I kinda got inspired because of the recent issues against Same Sex Marriage. I guess WE should be praying for them; for understanding.

Masteral
I have a report due last Saturday, Chapter 1 of my Case Study and what better way to tickle the minds of my classmate and my professor but to use something they’re not accustomed of; and also timely because of the recent issue, yes, Same Sex Marriage. He just asked me to get a married gay and lesbian story and voila! I got myself a report! It’s always been a scholarly joke in class when you’re starting to come up with a title, a project theme, or a proposal; the problem is, You don’t have a problem. When you have your title and all, you then state your problem; again, same thing. Thank God I'm gay and creativity for us is a bit juicy. The second subject I enrolled was RTV and Directing and our “professor” (quote unquote = font size 70, bold, black) is actually newly grad and just started working in a radio station for a year, and since no one is available to teach our subject, our schoold director asked him or rather forced him to teach the subject. However, what’s happening? Do I see a bratty power tripper? He was asking us to produce this and that, all this and that and more of that… "I know you’re all working so this shouldn’t be a problem." This is how my classmate told me how the new professor put it, good thing I wasn’t there because he’s asking too much! Next Saturday he’ll hear a word.

Career-wise
I’m enjoying my time with my new manager, since she’s working with the Leadership and Development Team of the company, she sure knows how to “develop” employees. Though, I understand she has time limitations, (she’s handling two different departments, and almost 3 different roles) she can really be accomodating. I already told her my intention of applying and undergoing development for a trainer position. She already taught me lots of things and one of which turned out to be a joke.

Just remember 3 C's when writing an e-mail, proposal or letter.(and all these time I thought it was: Clear, Complete and Chort!) Silly me. (I wish though I could apply this in my blogging too)

There was one time that we were both confused why we weren’t connecting; (eg. Me always asking to shadow a trainer during their training sessions) it took us a minute and 30 seconds to understand that my shchoopid ex- manager taught us “10 Things to Advanced Your Career,” in the wrong order. Number 1 was choose a mentor; she said “How can you choose a mentor if you don’t know what they will teach you? You should assess yourself first what skills you want to develop, THEN choose a mentor that will help you develop that skill.” She then gave a sharp look at the frame that that ex manager have near our bay (she had an award); we both have the same thing in mind; she didn’t deserve that. My “promotion” of getting the level III badge is just around the corner, I’m sooooooooo happy. Special mention to CC for his nice post about mentors (which pushed me to post a blog; you're a muse to me!)

Husband and I(in our scamy abode)
A little more sighs and we’re gonna finally leave our current scam-y condo. Last Friday night, after the mass, I went home only to find out that our electricity hasn’t been restored yet (since Thursday). Imagine your condo, the only building that doesn’t have electricity (and water supply), climbing the dark stairs without even emergency lights and what’s worse, ALL the other houses (and squatters) have electricity! I wanted to stay at Megamall longer but since I’m so groggy, walking home, I wanted to lay flat on the street and sleep. I went home and calmed my nerves, lit a candle, opened the windows, played some music and fanned myself to sleep. Husband arrived home and there was already electricity His arms around me, and I making him smile and laugh with my silly games made me forget that entire nightmare. It’ll be in no time until we sleep in our new place. A little bit more… A little bit more.

An interesting story
Here’s an interesting thing that happened. Last month when I enrolled, I saw an ID posted at the cashier’s window, the familiar structure of the ID made me realize it was our company ID. I took down the name and e-mailed that person. HE did respond that he did lost his ID, but what puzzled me was how did it get there? “I really don’t know. Never been there, never studied there” was his exact words. HHHmm.... Oh well, I just told him that I could teach him how to go there and pick it up himself or I could either get it for him, and he chose the latter. In our internal website, we actually have a phone book where it’ll show some general details of the person. You can upload a picture of yourself and update the information; I don’t, he does. I was surprised with the picture though; a semikal version of Chris Tiu to be exact. I “eeeeek-ed” like a little girl and when my two seatmates saw why, they also smiled. To check if my standards are in line with the normal people, I e-mailed my colleagues that if he’ll apply for their department, and they’d be the one to conduct the interview, would he get hired. Then I pasted the link. I was laughing when I received their replies! I told them the story and they asked me for his number so they (my girl colleagues) can date him. Anyway, the one that really threw me off was his last reply;” Thank you again. Is there something that I could do to get back on your kindness?” all their green minds went flying(and replying!). I actually didn’t reply that time, I just replied to him just now and asked for an apology because I was sick last Saturday and wasn’t able to get his ID.

If you could only eat at one fast food restaurant the rest of your life, which one would you choose?

2011-06-20T20:40:00.001-07:00

subway!!

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What do you do when you're having trouble falling asleep at night?

2011-06-17T20:32:00.001-07:00

I do my mantra... "sleep....sleep... sleep..."

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How was your first week of School?

2011-06-14T20:29:00.001-07:00

Masters? Disasters!

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Anong gamot sa katamaran?? XD

2011-06-14T20:27:00.003-07:00

tulak ng ibang tao para gawin ang dapat gawin!

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What's the meanest thing you've done with a banana?

2011-06-14T20:27:00.001-07:00

took a picture with my friend at the office with 2 eggs in each side while she was posing that she's about to eat the banana.

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What's the worst injury you've had, and how did it happen?

2011-06-14T20:26:00.001-07:00

Haha! At my brother's room, there was a screw driver half driven in a frame, my upper left leg bumped into its corner. Whoala! It tore through my flesH!

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Mobbed- Proposal

2011-06-10T03:41:00.000-07:00

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2011-06-04T00:56:00.000-07:00

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Dreams; the one when you sleep and the other when you’re awake

2011-05-31T16:25:00.000-07:00

Dreams; the one when you sleep and the other when you’re awake

Last week (and this week) was quite stressful because I’m on a one on one training with my new manager, plus all the errands I have to attend to.

I forgot when it was, but one of the things I dreamt of was it was a birthday party of my ex-girlfriend in a farm setting. It was actually somewhat like our province in Bulacan where there are farms and all. She had her birthday party in her house, usual bungalow house in Bulacan, but with bamboo trees around her house. It was a typical birthday party of a 10 y/o kid. I was surprised to see my high school classmates there; IN OUR HIGHSCHOOL UNIFORM. It seems that the party was in highschool time and space. She then showed me that she spent only 170php for the party that was in a plastic pack; “ready made party” it said on the label. I examined the pack and it seems pretty legitimate, and it was purple too. They then went outside for the games and they were laughing and playing like real kids again, in their highschool uniform, in a highschool time and setting, but they looked old.

It was still dark, early in the morning and we were outside Gold’s Gym Glorietta. When the glass door opened, I showed my Gold’s gym ID which I confidently showed; even if I haven’t paid for a long time. I just miss Gold’s gym that I want to visit the gym again. I went inside with several people already working out and running on the treadmill. I explored the 3rd floor and was surprised that they have an “improvised” rolling pin that I use at Eclipse for my back; somewhat metallic rolling pin-like. There were a couple of construction worker there who were fixing the boxing ring and were just resting. I then went on to work out at the abs machines and then I saw Carlos Concepcion, and woke up.

The other dream I don’t want to forget (and don't think I'll forget either); ever was dreaming of becoming good friends with Carlos Concepcion. We met before during a photoshoot with Men’s fitness magazine for the men’s fashion section, however, due to his “too young looking” face, the editor decided not to use his pictures for the said magazine. Anyway, we met at the streets and bumped into each other. He was nice enough to apologize and we talked. I opened up about him being the model we had a shoot with before and that’s were the “friendship” started. I also told him that we went to the same gym before and I reminded him that he always put the towel on his waist so low that the gay guys keeps on staring at him, and down there. He was laughing and he asked me if I was starting to, I said no, because I know him already. We sat there and kept on talking and sharing stories and I can remember a car parked near where we were sitting suddenly blew up and there was somewhat a shooting going on and suddenly, we were included in the shooting! Anyway, I’m just glad that in my dreams, I really felt we were really close friends, and that made my day.

On a more important note, I will always be thankful that my dream do came true; becoming a trainer, even if it was just a sub to my ex-manager. It seems everything is falling into place, me replacing her, then having my own class, and now, training our NEW manager. I know I still have a long way to go, I still have to master my competencies, but it’s a different feeling right now. This is also my first time to get the Top Position for the 1st Quarter. Like I said, I was just an average advisor before, and sometimes at the bottom, and I never thought that this dream will actually materialize. Plus, me loving what I do! It may not be like 100% but you feel great! Gaining almost 20lbs! The milk and eggs diet paid off! Then going to different places with husband also gave me a realization that these things are something that I need to be thankful of. Davao, Dos Palmas were just a bunch of letters before, but now, they are names of photo online albums.

Just like a dream, we will wake up eventually, and it’ll end. Sometimes, we wake up falling and sometimes it ends up a nightmare. It’s okay, because those things end up as well, and you just have to wait for the next exciting episode of your dream; whether you’re asleep or awake.

Who's your favorite relative and why are they your favorite?

2011-05-26T23:53:00.001-07:00

My cousins Pearlee and Sonia; they're the best and they're like Phiper and Prue of CharmeD!

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Are you willing to sacrifice your health to earn money?

2011-05-21T05:59:00.001-07:00

Im doing it right now! Hahaha!!

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confused and lost

2011-05-18T17:42:00.000-07:00

No, I’ve known I’m gay since way back when; I’m confused of what’s going on; work-wise that is.

My current manager was “promoted” to Cebu as a Team Lead (a "manager" of 3 managers) and they left an opening for her position as a manager. Right now, we have my friend-colleague as an acting manager and everyone actually is happy about him being one. When they started the application process, we were confident that he will be the one promoted because he’s good with the process and managing people; basically “perfect” for the position. We then learned that another manager was given for the position; another person to get along to, another new person, another person to know.

The transition of what’s happening lately made some of my colleagues discouraged and already gave an idea that they're resigning, one of which already did. “Female Current manager” started off as someone we look up to, we were friends with, cool to be with and all that jazz, but later on, we learned she’s not all that good; she’s actually someone you’d want to kill (I’m just glad she’s quite unacquainted when it comes to these kind of blogsites so I’m sure she won’t know about this.) We learned she’s a back fighter, gossip mongrel and plastic. Good thing we also have our “stupid” colleague who keeps on sharing things to us what she’s saying behind our back. Good thing we KNOW how to deal with these kind of people, we know how to “act” in front of her and we know how to “dance” with her too, it just so sad that our professional, and career lives were affected. “Acting manager-friend” should’ve been promoted, but he wasn’t so everyone was gloomy; we’re just waiting for her to leave next week and that’s it.

Sometimes I wonder; if I accepted the offer my friend gave me last year from another reputable company offering bigger salary, day-shift, office work, and all, and left them, would I be happier? I’m trying to fight off the feeling of regret of not resigning and I’m trying to talk myself out of it because I’ve experienced lots of opportunities here, opportunities that if you look positively, are actually something valuable.The Libra in me again; debating with myself again.

Next week, after the new manager joins us, I was chosen to train her; one on one. I would be off the phones, again, honing my training skills, and will be closer to my new manager. Negativity-wise, again, I will be used by my company, no extra pay as a trainer, and I have to “adjust” my schedule from my “perfect” schedule right now.

This just came in (as in right now), we have a internal job fair where we will have an exhibit per department in showing them what we do and two of my colleagues were asked to come in at 5pm (one is just going home at 9:30am) and fix the dedicated booth for us until 9pm, rest for 1 hour, do calls for 4 more hours and stay at the booth for 4 more hours. That’s so bull.
We just can’t wait for her to leave….

I’ll say again…

Wuuuuuusa!!! Happy Thoughts….

Blogging something

2011-05-15T10:35:00.000-07:00

When I was in college and started my blog, thanks to Sheenah for encouraging me to open one, I have been blogging about events of my daily activities and recently what’s been happening or what’s new that time. When I opened this second blog of mine, I’ve been wanting to blog life lessons, share inspirational stories, and something that would help anyone read my entry, smile, think about it and create an impact that it’d create a better world; gay world that is. Oh yes, ala Miss Universe!

However, everytime that moment comes, I’m on an unusual place, unusual time, and think “Oh, I’ll be blogging this,” and poof, it’s gone.

Anyway, right now, (blogging) it’s more of a brain work out for me especially for my writing and grammar, since I’m not blessed with a gift in the communication aspect. My colleague who is also a geek (but cooler than me) agreed that the reason why I’m having trouble with English is because I’m more gifted (*grins*) with Math, and creativity because I’m left handed. I read about this in “Left Handers Guide to Life” a book about (and for) Left Handed people. (On the naughty side; I'm ambidextrous when it comes to "that.")

Another battle I’m fighting is my struggle against procrastination. While cramming helps me to pressure myself squeezing out my creative juices and end up in good results. However, cramming vs. procrastination, I’m losing to procrastination especially now during my masters. I already have 3 incomplete subjects; one subject from summer last year, and two last semester, all due to procrastination. My bestfriend was willing to help me out with my report, but whenever we’ll start to do my report, we end up talking for the rest of the day.

Insecurities is one of those I call silent killer. I tend to feel and show confidence, but deep inside, I feel insecure, especially in large gatherings and social parties involving gay guys. I don’t know why I feel “small” whenever I’m around them, and when they project, I feel smaller, that’s why I’m more of a coffee shop or home person.

My contradictive persona is one of my predicament. I tend to debate with myself with almost all things. If I get asked a question, I answer back ALWAYS with it depends, then, I’ll debate myself with the yes and no answer. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m a Libra, or just because I have an open mind about everything.

Anyways, these battle are ongoing since I was a kid, and became worse in college and just enjoying life's little bitches now. How about you guys?

Do you have any plans of getting the new white iPhone 4?

2011-05-13T15:27:00.001-07:00

None. Unless someone will give me one. Nyahaha!!

Ask me anything

What superstitions do you have?

2011-05-13T15:26:00.001-07:00

never.. NEVER remove a ring from someone else's fingers...

Ask me anything

Pa embrace!

2011-05-08T06:09:00.000-07:00

“Kahit cactus ka pa, titiisin ko ang sakit, mayakap ka lang…”

I think I just did. The series of unfortunate events happened after we got back from our Dos Palmas Escapade last week. It’s Thursday and I’m still expecting a couple of bad news.

I’m contradicting my “optimism,” so that I won’t sulk myself to sadness because of what happened for the past few days.

It actually started on our adventure day when Davixz (my Sony Ericson Vivaz) and my HTC went on snorkeling with me and went out; literally. Husband noticed that there was water inside the underwater bag (that was supposed to prevent water going inside the bag)and I quickly checked the phones, and they were both wet. I wasn’t able to use them until the next day. When we were on our way back, they were both working fine, but it seems that the jinx was just starting. I was watching Bleach series in my Vivaz when it stopped working suddenly. I tried everything, but didn't result to anythining. When we reached the Palawan Airport, the flight was delayed… 1 hour… 2 hours... We reached Manila nearly 7pm and we were hungry, and there was no way to cross the NAIA 3 to the other side, where we can see all the restaurants beaming brightly to us. we managed, but it was a bit of a nightmare.

Saturday and we have a scheduled “team building” that time at our manager’s place in Pasig. We were lost going to her place plus the program was just… I can’t even describe how bad it was and poorly made. I managed to survive yet again another day.

Sunday, came and all of a sudden, my HTC broke down; just like that. I was charging my old phone, but it wasn’t charging properly, so I reached at least 1 bar before I left for mass. The next day, husband and I were supposed to go to the service center for HTC which was in the jungle of Greenhills. Husband worked for a telecommunication company before so he knows how to go about the twist and turns of warranty policies, and he told me straight in the face; if it gets wet, warranty is voided and he said the people in the service center knows if the phone got wet or not. He was right, when we reached the HTC Service center, they knew, and that’s why they texted me last Friday night that the piece that needs to be replaced costs 14,000Php and 600 for the service fee. My heart dropped; the phone is just a couple of months old and I still have to pay that for 2 years, and it’s worthless now. Davixz, on the other hand was brought last Tuesday, and said that I should try to back up the data; all my contacts are on my phone. I tried but since the screen wasn’t working, it's not letting me back up because the PC can't detect the phone. I went back last Wednesday, waited for the malls to open, hoping that it’ll be fixed within the day, but said that it’ll take 4 hours. So I just decided to come back last Thursday.

Mini jinxes. Last Monday, we were about to redeem our freebie from Taco Bell for the BPI promo, I was already having a bad case of headache and we were dead hungry and the cashier said that I can’t use the receipt because the receipt shows it was year 2000; FOR SOME REASON. The manager explained that they can't accept the receipt for that reason and since I'm working for a bank; a credit card company to be exact, I should know better, so we left the store (with Jeffrey Hidalgo in it!). We just went to Glorietta and enjoyed our free Blizzard.

Last Tuesday, after I went to Glorietta, and left the phone at the Sony Ericson service Center, I went home and husband then went to Greenhills to buy PS3, I went to sleep but woke up with nightmares (whenever I don’t sleep with husband, I either get nightmares or can’t sleep right), plus I got hungry; it was around 7ish and I still awake and I still have a shift at 11. I tried sleeping but my stomach kept on grumbling. I woke up and ate oatmeal instead.

The whole week, I wasn’t able to go to the gym because of my trips to the service centers and I suddenly have financial difficulties. It was rather harder since gym was the only place I can fight stress.

Almost everyday, I just embraced all those bad experiences and thought this too shall pass... and it paid off. IT DID!

Hey guys beware

2011-05-07T23:43:00.000-07:00

A call from 0917 310 5020

Hello? Kilala mo ba si (someone random)?
Hindi.
Ano pangalan mo?
Hindi ko kilala yung hinahanap mo, wrong number ka..
San ka ba nagtatrabaho?
'Di ko sasagutin?! 'Di ko naman kilala tinatanong mo..
Eh bakit kaya ikaw nilagay na reference dito?
Anyway, thank you..BYE!

If this was indeed a true HR rep calling in, she/he would've introduced himself and talk like a professional.
Be careful as this is a possible case of phishing. US and CANADA were already facing a big problem when it comes to identity theft, Philippines is not exempted as we already have few cases here in the Philippines, starting with mobile phone companies.

And believe me.. Some really do disclose their information..

repost na parang retweet

2011-05-05T23:02:00.000-07:00

Wanna know what happened last days of April with me and husband? HERE.

What's your favorite Mexican food dish?

2011-05-05T22:01:00.001-07:00

Tacos!

Ask me anything

Jupdates!

2011-04-26T08:32:00.000-07:00

Sorry if I haven’t blogged for eons now. The last time I was about to post something was when husband went for a minor surgery last week. I went to Bo’s Coffee to surf and like I said; blog, but I can’t leave the people I was chatting with that time at FB because I rarely go online nowadays unlike before when I was online 24/7; LITERALLY. So I ended up with an empty blog page.

So here goes a roll of what happened to me recently.

One of the reasons probably why I was busy was me getting more serious in the gym, as for the past two weeks, during my gym training during Mondays and Fridays; I’m still doing home exercises at home from Tuesdays until Thursdays; 100 to 120ish push ups and sit ups. (For the upcoming Puerto Prinsesa trip with husband) I already gained almost a kilo every week, and getting bigger and bigger as my colleagues sees my boobs are getting bigger and bigger too.

Since husband is in “forced vacation,” we now have time to bond more; cooking for us and also watching our favorite tv series. Just to let you know guys, we’re watching the latest episodes of Glee, Survivor- Redemption Island, ANTM Cycle 16, and Amazing Race, on the other hand, I’m watching Cougar Town, Bleach, Chuck, and waiting for QAF to finish its download and Modern Family. I’m aiming to download Big Bang Theory too.

I finished training the 4th batch of our new hires for our department. It was rather a nice experience to handle your own class. It’s actually a small group of 4 from the other department, but these were tenured ones who want to transfer to our department due to the less stressful work we do. I was training two girls, and two guys, a dentist, a conservative Chinese girl, a playboy-dad, a starting father. Our training was from 5am to 2pm and the schedule was quite a mix of stressful, yet relaxing; stressful because I don’t get to eat every two hours, but relaxing because I wasn’t doing any calls, plus it’s somewhat considered a day shift already. Since I’m still just any other representative; I don’t have access to any of the training materials in the “training folder.” My manager has to send it to me one by one. Though, I’m glad that I was able to go through the full training experience; alone, from start to end.

Special roll call for the bloggers I met in person recently; Mugen at the gym, London boy at the Zsa Zsa Zatturnah play!

Recently, I’ve encountered a lot of gay couples in Planet Romeo looking for a third party to join them in bed. Then, a friend of mine, who was doing this, broke up with his 9 year-boyfriend just because he “caught” his boyfriend doing this without his permission. I just find it odd and sad at the same time that they’re both doing it with other guys and now that he found about it, they’re breaking up? I’m not close to both of them enough to say something, but I really feel bad that another relationship ended just like that.On the other hand, I found this gay couple who has a point of view that made me smile. One of their profile reads:

"Cheating-is doing something without the consent of the other; breaking trust by entering a deal without the approval of the trustee.

how not to cheat?

-get consent, get approval ."

. I do hope that for those who keeps on “claiming” that they’re loyal, faithful, etc to their boyfriends, you can stand up for what you said, because sometimes, they are the ones who don’t keep their word.

I’m crossing my fingers for husband. His grandfather then planned to buy him and his younger brother a condo unit somewhere and found a nice 2 bedroom, 2 floor unit. The place was nice and the unit was fully furnished. I just hope his grandfather’s fickle mindedness won’t kick in again just like that last time he was about to buy a unit for them at Makati.

Last week, I went home because there’s a mobile passport processing again at our province. Mom got me a form and I left a copy of my expired passport and ID’s. I missed my room, but I still get feel stressed out; no television, the kitchen was downstairs so whenever I feel hungry, I have to go down. That’s why I’m not a fan of big spaces; I want everything to be accessible, just like in our unit. After you get out of bed, bathroom is just 2 steps away, kitchen is just 5 steps away, exit is one tumbling away and husband is 1 big hug away! Anyway, I attended the mass at the famous St. Therese inside UPLB, ate at the famous Papu’s Siomai and got my haircut at one of the salons. One of the reasons why it’s nice to have a haircut in Los Banos is you can get quality haircut at Php 40, that’s with a glass of iced tea or coffee. I was frightened that the stylist might murder my hair, but it was nice, I gave him a big tip that the people was looking at me while I was exiting the salon. Haha!

Another highlight of my visit was computer shops there are getting hi tech as they are now offering fast WiFi services for a fee! Probably they saw that most of the students have laptops so they’re offering WiFi services or LAN connection. You might think that it's quite pathetic now that there are coffee shops offering free WiFi, but the problem is their net connection is sooooooooo slow.

Right now, work is not becoming work; but just like an extra curricular activity. I can’t feel I’m working because of the latest happenings. When I started off with a BPO company, I was just another lower than the average agent. However, right now, I’m feeling it! I’m getting the top spot, mastering our procedures, and still doing refresher courses for my colleagues. Time flies so fast that I can’t believe that we’re already three years in this company! Plus, I have a good development plan ahead of me! It’s actually something I didn’t expect from HIM because he always do something out of the ordinary. I still wish to be a teacher some day but right now, I’m still enjoying this.

In addition, something made us smile as we’re proud to announce that our company performed well in the Fortune Most Admired survey. I get to work for the 23rd most admired company in the world - ahead of Nike, Nestle, Toyota, eBay and Sony.

Plus, for second year in a row, our company was recognized as a 2010 Outstanding Employer of the Year by PEZA (Philippine Economic Zone Authority) during the recently concluded PEZA Investors’ Recognition Night held at the World Trade Center. The PEZA Outstanding Employer Award recognizes organizations that generate considerable employment opportunities, highly regard the welfare of their workers, and maintain harmony between workforce and management.

This summer, I’ll try to complete my requirements for my three subjects. I’m getting pissed with their system that I’m having ideas not to finish my masters there anymore. I just hope our adviser will help us about our problem with our professors since they’re not doing their jobs properly. One problem of masters are that we’re already adult enough to know if they’re meant to be professors or just lame teacher that was labeled professors because they’re already too old in the institution.

I found the pictures I was looking for so I can post another “exciting” entry on my other blog, it will be entitled “SK.” I’m still thinking of other nice entries for my other blog site, any ideas?

To end my entry, I would like to share with you guys another blog site here in blogspot that’s making waves in our office. The everythinginbudget site. This blogspot site showcase all the sales, and discounted coupons. This is where husband got our promo for the Puerto Prinsesa trip tomorrow...

God bless all of you guys!

if I ask you to meet me... will you do it? - an0nymous

2011-04-15T04:23:00.001-07:00

depends on who are you...

Ask me anything

zeh zsa zsa zaturnnah experienZE!

2011-04-08T00:39:00.000-07:00

Guys, my apologies for this uber month late post... I've been busy so I wasn't able to post anything.
Takas post as my trainees are currently not asking any questions.... YET...

March 5, 2011, we were excited to watch Zsazsa Zaturnnah when suddenly, we were informed that the show was cancelled due to technical problems; one of the electric-whatever exploded so they won’t be able to do the show. Instead, they gave us free playbills. Damn.

We then went to Glorietta and (husband) watched “The Adjustment Bureau” and I just slept the whole time was showing.

March 19, 2011, this is it! After a catnap, we then went to CCP for the show, and there in the souvenir booth, was the pretty cute Zsa Zsa Shirts! I was asking husband ala- financial advisor if I can buy one but he won’t let me. We waited for the show and I was excited! There we saw John Lapus and lots of other people in high end clothes. (Later that night, Prince Stephan fb status was he watched the show; damn I wasn’t able to see him!)

I wasn’t able to watch the show for the past 6 Staging as there’s ALWAYS something coming up. This time, I was soooo happy I was able to watch it.

The show started and I can’t stop smiling! I didn’t expect to see too much problems though, but there were a couple. Anyway, everybody (or at least I ) got excited when Rocky Salumbides showed up on his tight orange shirt. The other extras were cute too! I mean literally boytoy cute!

Didi gave a long spiel in gay lingo that there will be a 10 minute break after the first half, he/She/It went back to give an English translation of the spiel. Laugh trip!

I was talking to one of UPLB’s promising playwright Ms. Layeta Bucoy, that Zsa Zsa was somewhat like her play ICEBAG series. The play was hilarious but there were moments that could make you feel “Awww…”

After the play, we took pictures with the cast. YAY!

While waiting... Picture taking!

Zeh Stage!

Ada, Zsa zsa and moi!

Wilma as Dina B. Hahaha!

Si pareng DODONG!

Zeh Final Call!

Do you believe in ghosts? Why or why not?

2011-03-26T13:04:00.003-07:00

Yes, because they are the spirit/soul. That's you.

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formspring.me

2011-03-26T13:04:00.001-07:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/vondraye

Dreams

2011-03-13T11:33:00.000-07:00

I posted this last Saturday in FB; I dreamt of a Harry Potter –High School Musical Mash Up.

It was in the Diagon Alley; dark, grey themed scene in one of the stores and it was Christmas season. Troy (Zac Efron) and Gabriella (Vanessa Hudgens) were chatting with the group, but this time, the group of Harry Potter’s friends from Gryffindor. Then, Beatrix Lestrange then arrived with a daunting attack using her wand. Here’s the crazy part, Gabriella entered an empty store, as she tries to evade Beatrix’ attacks; while singing. It was indeed a nice song, somewhat When There Was Me and You from the first movie. It was funny because we were listening to Boyce Avenue that time, so I’m not sure where that song came from. Anyway, as she was doing her wall slides while singing, while evading the attacks and came about to a locked door, she used her power to slid through it as if she’s a ghost, what made it more interesting is during that time, I felt it was me. Then, at times, it’ll be me watching the scene from above, just like a cameraman. Too bad I’d fancy Troy in Burberry clothes and turtlenecks. That’s as far as I can remember.

im sorry....

2011-03-04T18:09:00.000-08:00

..coz I haven't posted for a long time.

These were the things that happened last Valentines Week,

From Feb 14 until 18, we were in the beautiful and clean city of DAVAO!

We spent the first day and roamed around SM Davao and the famous Crocodile Farm since our hotel was just across the said mall. Day 2, husband took an e-tour services in Davao. We had our City Tour and learned A LOT about Davao. Day 3 was White River Rafting Day! Day 4 was supposed to be going somewhere else but thanks to the rainy weather, we just stayed at SM Davao; loser huh. We watched Just go with it and it was hilarious! Friday was pack up and went back to Manila.

I was excited the following week because we were supposed to either watch Zsa Zsa Zaturnah or me and my bestfriend will watch SUJU but since I was busy that time, I wasn't able to process the request for the free tickets from BPI. Loser me.

Saturday was our Alumni Homecoming, I was pretty excited to see old faces and how the people were doing then. When I was about to get my yearbook, this quite killed the night.

I thought it was a joke, but apparently it wasn't.

What quality do you value most in your friends?

2011-03-04T04:10:00.001-08:00

Honesty and knows when and how to keep their mouth shut

Ask me anything

if i kiss you, would you kiss back?

2011-03-04T04:09:00.003-08:00

Depends on who you are, and depends on what kind of kiss.

Ask me anything

What makes you "kilig"?

2011-03-04T04:09:00.001-08:00

Watching kakakilig movies and series, surprises, smiles from my crushes; mababaw lang ako eh.

Ask me anything

What's the first thing that you usually notice about someone you meet?

2011-02-16T17:02:00.001-08:00

Face! To check if their smile is sincere or not, then their aura!

Ask me anything

Casual Conversations; School Edition; Meet my Classmate - Viccia

2011-02-11T19:12:00.000-08:00

Today, after our first class, we went to KFC for some break. Here's what happened.

Viccia: 'Yung Snack Box po. (The Snack Box please)
Cashier: Alin po dun? (Which one?)
Viccia: Yun... (pointing at nothing) (That one)
ME: Sira, alin dun, kung hotshots, fun shots or chicken wings! (Crazy girl! Which one from hotshots, fun shots or chicken wings! )
Viccia: 'Di ba lahat yun? (Won't everything be included?)
Me: ....

Episode 2
Viccia: Eh kasi mali nakalagay, dapat "Choice from..." (Because it's wrong, it should be "Choice From..."
ME: ....

She's not beside me, wanting not to post this...
How can't I???

Striking Thoughts; TV Series; Cougar Town

2011-02-09T20:29:00.000-08:00

I just have to post this, I can't stop meditating on this.

I’ve spent so much time trying to separate romance from friendship...

I guess if you're lucky, you have both.

-Jules Cobb from the series Cougar Town-

Blessings ala La Nina

2011-01-31T07:02:00.000-08:00

This is getting weirder and weirder; not that I’m complaining, but blessings from God keeps on pouring in! I thought it was already finished last week, but I was wrong. I just hope everyone gets the high I'm feeling right now; (all those who are deserving of course). I'm still praying to HIM that they experience this "high" of happiness too.

Last week was unproductive; coming from husband’s hometown (to celebrate his mom, aunt cousin’s birthday celebration), and another birthday celebration from our organization’s (GAWAD FT San Luis) founder; I caught a bad case of allergic rhinitis.

When I went back to Manila, I went straight to attend mass at MCC, then to work. Good thing Sunday was another rest day for us so we were able to take a good rest during the shift. Monday morning, since I have 3 days worth of things in my bag, I decided to go home and rest, and wasn’t able to work out; this is my 2nd week that I haven’t visited the gym. I just did push ups and abs exercises not to let my body loose its strength. Then come Tuesday, I tried to work on my financial report for my new business, but due to my obsessive-compulsiveness, I wasn’t able to finish it due to missing data (which until now I haven’t finished yet).

Friday came and I planned to visit the gym, however, my original manager asked me to cover for her in training the newbies. I was like… WOW! Me?! A trainer?! I mean, yeah, it was just for two hours, but come on! I was chosen to train these newbies! I didn’t think that much if I’ll be paid (OT) or not, but I’m just happy that I was the one selected to train them. During the training, it was somewhat pleasant as they gave me the respect and acceptance that their future colleague; is their semi- trainer. They listened and answered my questions. I didn’t hear/saw any bad feedbacks or bad remarks. My predicament between them was that Trainee 2,3 and 4 all came from 1 department and so Trainee 1, feeling OC, paranoid and all somewhat, feels awkward.

Two hours was indeed short and timeless that I didn’t realize we were overtime for 30minutes. I was tired, but I was happy. I was given the chance to be my dream; a trainer for 2 hours. Or so I thought.

Saturday, I had a bad headache because early that morning, husband’s speaker mounted on the wall fell into my forehead. When my acting-supervisor slash colleague called me up and gave me surprising news. Since my original manager, is currently an acting team lead (leading 3 managers in the other department) and training the newbies at the same time, she asked me to do the rest of the training for the remaining days of the week. So this Tuesday until Friday; I will be the one to train them. I was on my way to school, so I wasn’t able to talk to her on what will I be doing, but since I already have their schedule, I have an idea on what to teach. My then bi-polar professor that morning (burst out mad/angry and after 1 hour turned happy and gay) didn’t stop me feeling good.

I then went to Glorietta to meet husband and his mom who was shopping for her DSLR’s bag and accessories. After a while, we dropped her off in Buendia on her bus ride home, and went to Jollibee Harbor square for Sofie (my cousin’s daughter’s) 1st birthday. Mom, dad, sister, Reigne and Icez (her son and daughter) were already there. It was rather weird that it was childern’s party but the children were less than 10. So the games/programs were then directed to “young adults,” I was feeling child at heart that moment so I obliged and pulled husband (who got mad after) with me to join the games. It was all gone when Jollibee and Hetty danced I think a song they called Waka-waka? What made the party more fun was when Hetty asked me to dance with her and the people were pushing me (even husband and my sister; close much?) asked me to dance!! It was hilarious!

Husband and I decided to get a massage and we found one in Park Square 1 in Makati at Mt.Albo. After the massage, there was still time for 1 LSF and then we watched Love and Other drugs starring Jake Gyllenhaal and Anne Hathaway. Wiki said that the movie was based on the story from the non-fiction book written by Jamie Reidy; Hard Sell: The Evolution of a Viagra Salesman. So that explains the Viagra story in the movie. The movie was rather humor driven, I thought it was somewhat “A Walk to Remember,” “The ugly Truth,” and “LiveShow” rolled into one; sex driven, humorous but deep (minus the XXX scenes of course).

Sunday was weird; we went home, bought some chicken (Andok’s; have to give in to our craving), slept, woke up, ate brunch, watched Despicable Me. It was around 20ish minutes before the end, I realized was laughing alone; husband fell asleep. We slept again and woke up to prepare for the mass. I have to skip MCC since I was not feeling well. We just attended the last mass at Megamall and I went straight to work.

casual conversations; Work Edition; E-mail Fail

2011-01-25T12:07:00.000-08:00

For some reason, (probably due to my allergic rhinitis), I was not myself last night starting my shift at 12mn. I received in my inbox a request for a manager call back to a customer complaint and 3 more of almost the same issue. We were almost queueing (receiving calls one after another) that time so I asked my (current acting)manager if the (other soon to be demoted acting) manager can do the call back, since he's also not doing calls.

Hey boss,

Since it’s queueing since the start of the shift, I’ll be requesting for Joseph to kindly do the ob(outbound) sup call (aka manager call back) since we’ve been queueing almost since the start of the shift.

Thank you.

He then forwarded this e-mail to my close friends and they started to start a e-mail chat thread, and later I realized why...

I wanna slap myself that time; really.

2011-01-16T19:58:00.000-08:00

Sigh, just like MGG, I was hit by the new sickness; procrastination in terms of blogging. I had lots of blog ideas during the pre New Year and New Year and post New Year, and a week after New Year but I still can’t keep my hands typing on my keyboard.

I just now had a time thanks to my short term memory loss, I left my report at the office so I have no choice but to utilize the free internet and turn it into something useful.

I’m thankful for the past two weeks; God has been good to me showering me with blessings. To start off was I spent my Christmas and New Year with Jeff’s family and clan, and before going back to Manila, Jeff’s mom wanted to have a Tagaytay getaway to practice her photography skills, and since I haven't been to Nuvali yet, we also dropped by there for me to see the place, I soooooooooooo love her!

Thanks to my readers and followers as well as they are the ones who gets to push me to write here, my muse for pumping inspiration to me more than I need.

So let's get started with the photos first! Presenting... Chrissy!

Tita Pinky (Jeff's aunt) brought Chrissy

during the New Year Celebration at their grandma's place.

She's such perfect, not waking up, even if I transferred her to husband's lap.

Shots with husband and future mother-in-law. hehehhe

They gather around the sala and Joey (husband's niece) distributes the gifts!

I got one from Jeff's mom and Tita Pinky! Yay!!!!!

My childhood bestfriend; husband's younger brother goofing around Jeff's tablet.

From L-R: Tita Madel, MJ, Jaq(brother's girlfriend), husband Kojie!

Sweet poses...

Two Holy Unions; Two Lovely Holy Unions

Last Friday, January 7, 2011 then the second one was January 13, 2011.
Gina and Xedric and AC and Quinn's holy union, with their permission to post these pics.

Krissy and Sam my lesbian crushes!

Then January 13, 2011 held at Taste Asia at MOA, was Quinn and AC's Holy Union. This one's a unique one since Quinn's parents were there to witness their holy union!

Thanksgiving to HIM! For all these blessings (and updates too!)

I’m thankful for being one of the top 3 for the 4^th Quarter in our team. I still can’t believe I’m one of the top three who made it! I’m really not that “that” good; however, it seems the Secret indeed works.

New manager, new management!

January, after 6 months of being a relief (mischief) manager, let’s name him J, finished his relief team manager program and is now replaced by friend K as the new relief manager. I’m happy because J really doesn’t know how to… do ANYTHING… Anyway, I’m happy that a REAL soon-to-be manager is in position.

New game; Farm Frenzy

Out of nowhere, I went to yahoo games, and I saw this Farm Frenzy, it seems cute, just like Plants vs. Zombies in the picture so I played it for a while; until I got addicted. I searched for Torrent for their full program and BINGO! I got the three versions!

Improved on my coaching skills

One of my dilemma last year was my coaching skills; wrong… I mean literally WRONG use of words… My friends, colleagues and people tell me I’m mean and sometimes too blunt. However, I’m able to send e-mails, talk to my colleagues and receive feedback that they’d want me to apply as a Relief Team Manager, because of the way I coach them. I was like…. WHOAA?! Out of the question!

New business and is on a successful start!

I really don’t intend to start that business, but the Secret gave a sign for me to do so, and so I did. I didn’t expect It’ll work for me. When I was in college, my loading prepaid phones were a blast, especially since I know a lot of people. Now, I’m gonna make it sell like that when I was in college! Money money money come to PAPA!!

Financial status is not bugging me no more!

I’m just glad that the pressure’s over! Thanks The Secret!!

Recommendation for relief trainer was one of the things that made me smile this 2011.

And I'm singing...

"These are the few of my favorite things!"

Hehehe

Spread the love guys! God Bless!

A homophobe approaches you and tells you bad stuff about your sexuality. What do you do?

2011-01-12T22:41:00.001-08:00

Pag gwapo kiss, pag pangit, tadyak, pag babae, sampal! Kidding! Smile lang naman... that's his opinion... hehehe.. cheers!

Ask me anything

What if your bf had a fubu for almost 2 years now? Are you gonn let it pass or end it? (coz i happened to be his, never knew he's ur bf until i read ur blog) SORRY

2011-01-12T22:40:00.001-08:00

Let it pass, because its just a "What if" question. haha!

Ask me anything

UPDATES shmuctdates

2010-12-27T14:40:00.000-08:00

I want first of all to apologize to everybody for not being able to blog for weeks. Besides being busy, a couple of personal problem (that I’ll be sharing in a little while) came.

Since pictures tells more than what I type. I'll just let you feast on our shots during our 2nd year Anniv Celebration.

Second, thank you for my readers/followers... I can't believe I'll hit this mark. I owe it all to you guys (and HIM)!

A shot while taking a rest from shopping.

*During the BPI Madness Sale, they have a raffle.

Every 1,000php use of BPI Edge entitles you for a coupon.

Every 30 minutes, they will call a winner and

will get a prize from the store participating in the said sale.

I got this from Levis

and this.

*Suspicious side note: After we won the Levi's shirt,

we went around and husband bought another pair of jeans.

So I went back to the BPI booth and one of the male staff said,

"Sir kayo na naman?! ("Sir, it's you again?!"in all smiles )

"Sige na, bunutin nyo na yung kay sir, (Go ahead, just pick his name)

"Sir pirma nalang kayo dito" (Sir, just sign here.)

I was surprised with th turn of events, damn, I now have to go to Adidas

to use the gift cert. I went there and bought myself a nice

swimming trunks.

After that, we celebrated our 2nd year Anniv at

and ate this.

and this.

we then attended the MCCph Christmas Party ala Lady Gaga;

part of our thanskgiving to HIM for our 2 years of strong bond!
More pictures here

*Too late to post, but still worth posting.

formspring.me

2010-12-08T19:07:00.001-08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/vondraye

casual conversations ;Work Edition; Movie Title Fail

2010-12-08T15:41:00.000-08:00

Colleague 1: napanood mo na yung movie na The legends?

Everybody was like .....

Colleague 1: yung tungkol sa mga owls?????

Colleague 2: Baka Legend of the Guardians!?!?

Quick-ie

2010-12-02T04:36:00.000-08:00

It started last week with my magical what if...
Whoala! Baked Corned Tuna with tomatoes and mayo lite.

Because everybody is running, I'm going swimming...

This good man is now an angel.
You'll be forever be remembered Sherman.
June 12, 1975 - November 30, 2010

My (supposedly) profile pic in FB, however, husband posted it first,
so I used his fox mode.

Last Monday, I started training with the instructor at the gym, Chrisitian.
My body ached like hell, but when I saw this last Tuesday, I was happy.
Thanks Christian!

End of the month.

2010-11-30T16:49:00.001-08:00

Last Sunday was our usual “dead” shift and I was typing when suddenly, I felt sleepy. So we kinda rest for a while and delayed our work load for a bit. Sunday was pretty exciting day after Paul and Appolo’s fight last Saturday. Hehehe. After I stayed at CBTL in MOA, I left for Megamall to attend the Saturday Mass, and went ahead to eat my heart out; literally. Comfort food: tofu steak and ramen. Then, I roamed around for a bit and tired from class, decided to go home around 10pm. I’m still feeling bad and I decided to sleep in my yoga mat on the floor. Next day I was awakened by loud knocks; it was mom with my cute nephew and niece.

Trying out the chairs...

They were there to finish a couple more furnishings at home; our laundry area’s “sampayan” and our foldable dining table. I was surprised to see my sister there, because dad knows how small our studio unit is and still he brought along my sister, my mom, my niece and my nephew and our helper. Oh well, since they were quick to install it, they were finished in no time. I was also praying that mom or dad won’t see the framed “Certificate of Blessing” atop the TV. I forgot they both are blind without their glasses on. We then headed to Megamall to eat brunch, and husband and I were already good. I was already teasing him about what happened yesterday and he can’t stop himself from laughing. I’m trying my best not to grab his hand to since I’m used to holding his hands whenever we do window shopping. I then showed dad the corner cabinet I asked him to do. They went back to Laguna and we went back to sleep since we woke up early that morning, since I still have shift that Sunday night.

Monday morning was something to look forward to because it’s my first day with my trainer at the gym. We started off with warm up exercises and he explained why it is extremely important. I actually don’t do warm up for almost 2 years of my life working out at the gym. He gave me different kind of warm up, like rolling your back and front using a styro roller and a couple of stretchings. I then started with squats, and I was surprised that all these time, what I was doing was wrong, the stances and all. He corrected me and explained (again) why, and was able to understand the logic of things. Since we’re determining my maximum strength that day, he was getting my maximum weigh I can lift. I can’t believe I did it at 115lbs! My bench press was at 145lbs, and he asked me how come I was able to lift that heavier than my squats, I told him I’ve been doing bench press for a year while squats, less than 2 months and that’s with all the wrong moves. We then headed to do dumbbell press and rows, then off to biceps and triceps exercises and last was the abs. I asked if I could do the treadmill but he advised me not to since we’re training to bulk up. He also gave me food tips: 6 meals a day, 6 eggs a day, 1 liter of milk, fish, etc. I asked him if I can do Soy Milk but he said the regular milk is better since Soy has estrogen(?) that might give me manboobs. I went home and ate with husband not knowing that when I woke up, my body ached like hell. I missed that kind of body ache, since I always want to push myself to the limit and the only way to measure that was that; body ache.

Tuesday morning, husband asked me to have breakfast at Megamall; I smiled and told him that he really loves doing “carino brutal.” I told him that it was hard for me to walk since my body aches so bad, that either I look like a newly circumcised boy or been eff’d by a black guy. Lol. Anyway, I don’t want to argue anymore so I agreed and we tried the Secret Recipe. We then went to National bookstore and I realized I miss doing something; surprises. I told him I’ll just wait for him outside, but since there was a flowershop just beside National Bookstore, I bought him one gerbera; I was so hating manong that time since he was so slow, plus he said they don’t have any change for my 100 php bill. SERIOUSLY?! I then checked for 30php in my pocket and good thing there was. I found husband already looking for me, and when he saw me, he was trying not to smile/ laugh. There he was posing one for me. We then decided to drop by at the grocery before going home.

the not so secret place at The Secret Recipe

HE can't stop smiling...

My Best(yes) Man(weh?!) speech

2010-11-29T01:02:00.000-08:00

*I just fondled in my Dashborad and saw this. I haven't posted this yet. A friend of mine told me to post it anyway since I wasn't able to say this during my brother's wedding. It was frustrating enough for me not to be able to do my Best Man's Toast, so I don't want to add more frustration by not posting this, so here goes.

When kuya told me that I will be his bestman, naging Pilipino ako; nanlaki ang mata ko. After ilang seconds, Intsik na ulit ako.

From what I can remember, best man are supposed to be the one who is close to the groom; and its not me. I was expecting either a cousin, his bestfriend or my dog to be the best man, but I was surprised that he got me.

I then asked a friend who was a wedding coordinator what a best man does…Best Man's Toast for the groom and a speech.

SHIT.

He doesn’t deserve to be my brother, I don’t deserve to be in front of you giving you this speech. Moreover, Ate Thet doesn’t deserve to marry my brother, he doesn’t deserve to be mom and dad’s son, and my ate’s elder brother. He doesn’t deserve to be a pilot and he doesn’t deserve to be happy. I was thinking of stopping the wedding a while ago, pero naisip ko "Ang ganda ng mommy ko at ng mother in law ko, di pwede masira ang make up… (I thought "My mom and my mother in law were both beautiful, it might ruin their make up.")

Let me tell you about my brother; he was a player before; I’m not sure if the rumors were true, but I think it was 3 girls a month was his rule. While I was in a long term relationship with my then girlfriend, what I saw in him was simply unacceptable. He was also always out while I stared at the television and when he arrives, he’ll grab the remote from either me or my sister and would watch his OWN favourite show leaving me and my sister no choice; either watch what he was watching or leave. IF there were treats given to us whether chocolates or goodies, he doesn’t care if we already ate or not; he’ll just eat them all.

That’s my brother. WAS my brother.

When I was growing up, I studied tae kwon do so one day, I wish I could beat him up, that didn’t happen. I grew up with angst, hatred and fear from my brother, that’s how we grew up.

I grew up thinking life is unfair because everything was almost in his favour. He never had any problem on his studies. He passed Rural High School while effortlessly passing his grades and could’ve passed UP, but since he was a kid, it was already his dream to be a pilot. He also attended it without any effort. While me and my sister were struggling which course to take, struggling to college life, passing our grades and me dreaming of studying in a prestigious school in Manila, ended up graduating in a college in Calamba City.

When he was in highschool, he already knows how to roam Manila, while even in college, that’s when I just started roaming Calamba City. He effortlessly do his responsibilities like waking up in the morning and doing his morning rituals ¼ the time me and my sister did.

I think I can give him the dictionary definition of smooth criminal.

He gets away of almost anything, and that’s why I hated and envy him so much.

That’s until she met Ate Thet.

Or rather we met her.

I’m not good with dates, and I have trouble with my memory. However, this specific moment when my brother introduced Ate Thet to us was rather peculiar. Hindi ko sya nakausap (I didn't get the chance to talk to her), he just introduced her like any other girls he had before, yun nga lang, mas nauna ako sa pagdala sa bahay ng girlfriend ko… na ngayon may iba nang asawa. (thing is, I was the first one to bring a girlfriend at home... who now has her own family.)

I can still remember, it was Kisses chocolates a bag and a Body Shop soap was left as a gift. Sabi ko may sumpa talaga ang pamilya namin, nung nagka girlfriend ako, ako rin ang niregaluhan… bakit kami ang nililigawan??? I was about to ask dad pero ‘di ko na tinanong… Tama na yung kaming dalawa nalang nakaka alam.

Anyway, I can still remember, thinking that time, kawawang babae (pity girl), bumyahe ng olongapo to los banos, para sa 3 weeks na kalokohan. Lumaki ulit mata ko kasi occasion after occasion sya ng sya na nakikita ko. Naka ilang serious relationship nako, sila pa rin ni kuya! And that was the time, siguro dahil matanda na kami, nagkabati na kami ng brother ko…

I graduated and sila pa rin?! Nagkatrabaho nako, at may dumagdag na sa listahan ng mga reregaluhan ko sa pasko!? Little by little that’s when I knew Ate Thet more. There were times when I resigned at work and my brother was the one who supported my masters and my living, he’ll invite me to join them to eat outside. They’ll take me to fancy restaurants that I could only dream of eating, and that’s when I saw na pumuti na ang uwak, in love na nga talaga ang kuya ko, and I guess everyone already witnessed that in front of God, he gave his solemn promise that he’ll love Ate Thet, but I was concerned kasi sa pagkaka alam ko, nagpromise si kuya na hindi na sya mambababae, but I forgot to tell her tinanong mo ba sya kung hindi sya manlalalake?

I want to take this opportunity to thank Ate Thet for making our family bigger, not by the number but by love. You’re the second sister I never had, a gift from God to our family, a friend I was looking for and an angel to my brother. A textmate whenever I feel sad, and the best of all, may kakwentuhan na ako sa showbiz news.

Like I said before, my brother is not a pig! I mean, he doesn’t deserve all of these, he was mean to me, and he made my childhood a nightmare, he doesn’t deserve Ate
Thet, but when I came to my senses, he proved to everybody that he’s a changed man. And Ate Thet coming into his life, our life changed everthing… He’s not worthy to be her husband. However, I thought, who is more deserving than him? I think none.

Pain < Love or Pain > Love ?

2010-11-26T22:49:00.000-08:00

Apollo and Paul entered a certain boutique inside the mall. It was an ordinary day for the two. Paul was more eccentric that Apollo so he went straight to what seems to be a cool jacket with lots of zippers in front and a hood. “I don’t see the point of these zippers.” Paul said. Apollo, for some unknown reason replied “That’s what you want right? Pointless eccentric designs just like the polo you bought last time? (One with the button until near the shoulders like a chef ‘s uniform) “Ang yabang nito.” The smile on Pauls’ face disappeared. They went outside the store . When they arrived, they were walking together, Paul now walks like a zombie, trying hard to keep his feelings to himself. Apollo noticed this and asked him what’s wrong, Paul was just silent. He don’ want to talk yet, as he might say something bad again. They reached the other side of the mall near the salon line and they stopped. Apollo once again asked Paul, and he gave in. “The reason why I’m not talking is I might say something pointless again.” He said that in his calmest tone he can. “It wasn’t you that I was referring to, it was the jacket!? What’s happening to you?! Just because of what I said, you’re gonna be like that!” Paul was just silent, Apollo’s voice was raising more and more. Paul then said, “Sorry,” which Apollo thought sounded sarcastic, but Paul was trying to remind Apollo that he should be asking for an apology since he hurt his feelings. “You’re saying sorry and you don’t mean it!? What’s the point?!” Paul felt like a target in a firing range, bullet by bullet he kept on receiving everything and trying not to feel the pain; it hurts so much but he kept the pain to himself, not wanting to burst and get into an argument.

Silence.

More silence.

“I’ll have my haircut…”

Apollo left and Paul was there, leaning in the railings. First step, second step, third step, he was waiting for Apollo to look back, fourth step, fifth step, still no sign of hesitance. Apollo reached for the door, maybe this time, he’ll look back. No. He entered.

He stood there, waiting, maybe he’ll go out again and wave to me to go.

None.

Paul tried to smile, he did! However, he’s dead inside. It was just in a zombie movie, where a zombie was smiling.

He left.

Time can heal wounds, but the memory is there forever. The pain will go away, but it’ll forever be in your mind. The longer you’re together, the more love you build up, but what happens when your love for each other grows more and more and how great your love is, corresponds to the pain you feel when you’re hurt? Is it worth the pain? If your love is as big as a mountain, overwhelming, wonderful and beautiful… What will you do if that’s also how great the pain you will feel when the time comes? Can you stand the overpowering, vast and tremendous pain it’ll put you through?

Sometimes it takes just one word to overcome that tremendous pain, however, it hurts more that some people doesn't seem to notice that they're already hurting the person who loves them the most.

Casual Conversations, GS Edition, Waiters and "Bill Please"

2010-11-24T16:18:00.000-08:00

I’m having a hard time adjusting to this season’s weather as I’m weak when it’s cold. That’s why my mind doesn’t work and wasn’t working properly for the past few days. I told this story to my friend Raha, , and she said to post this as she was just laughing like there’s no tomorrow; and that’s only during our chat conversation.

Saturday was school day for me at Graduate School for my Masters. Since my school was near a commercial center where SM Savemore, Pizza and Jollibee were, we tend to stay there and hang out. We chose Pizza Hut to stay so it would be a bit comfy for me since I'll be waiting for them to finish my classmates' Stat Class.
Scene 1:
While we're in the middle of our sumptuous meal, I asked my bestfriend to ask the waiter some ketchup (since she's much nearer to the waiter’s area). I was surprised why she did the "bill please" sign (you know? Like drawing a rectangle using the pointing finger and thumb of your hands?) and asked for the ketchup. So the confused waiter approached us and asked “Ma’am?” I slapped her at the back while saying to the waiter that we need some ketchup. The waiter keeping himself from laughing left and I, nagged at my bestfriend, asking why did she just did that! Even she doesn’t know the answer.

Scene 2:
Sitting on the couch alone, I was watching the other couch consisting of a mom, and 2 teenage guys. I was already concentrating on my report when suddenly, my peripheral vision caught the mother’s hands doing the “bill please” sign. The waiter approached her and asked, “Ma’am Piktyur?” I stopped myself from laughing, and covered my nearing to laugh smile (just like what Edward did at his class when Bella came in and he smelled her).

I really don’t know what’s happening that day. All I know is it’s hilarious day.

Of Zoden and Hayden, of Unstoppables, Armani and Eclipse

2010-11-12T22:06:00.000-08:00

The other day, I was preparing to hi t the bed and I was looking for zoden, I knelt on my bed and thinking that under the comforter was just the bed; I knelt the usual way and I knelt on something, it didn’t take me a second to realize that I knelt on Zoden (Creative Zen). I checked and it was still whole, however, when I turned it on; he was already like this:

Good thing he was still working, and kept on playing. I’m still having second thoughts if I’ll replace him or not, especially with the 13^th month pay coming, but husband told me that it’ll be a waste of money since Zoden can still play songs and the video is still viewable; with a couple of black spots though.

Yesterday, I was about to go to the gym after my shift, however, since husband needs some uplifting (he was depressed due to some work issues), I decided to surprise him, so I went straight home and we slept together. He invited me to watch Megamind, but there’s no more available slot during the LFS. I was able to check the schedule and BINGO! Unstoppable was available, and apparently, he already forgot that it was the one that we’re waiting for.

We woke up early (which bugs me because if it’s a date or going out, I’m able to get up without any problem, but if its work, I wake up late…), around 6pm, and prepared for our date. After we bought the ticket, dropped his things at work, we then ate dinner at Sbarro, since we were craving for their Cheesecake with toppings; which was not available anymore. I then just ordered the cheesecake with cherry and him, a slice of tiramisu, which we both didn’t enjoy.

We then went to Speedo to check some goggles (I’m coming back to swimming), and didn’t find any “nice” pair. On our way to The Ramp, someone was approaching us, trying to sell something, or trying to SPRAY something… Being the snob people that we are, we just went straight to the Ramp, but a couple of steps away from the entrance, husband stopped me and told me it was Hayden Kho near the Mercury Drug store. “Seriously?!” I checked and it was him! It was now my chance! We went to check it out and it was indeed him! There were two gurls who just finished taking their picture with him and a straight couple buying perfume from him and asking some “business proposal” while we were scanning the store, I was waiting for the chance to ask him for a picture with him, but this salesman already “offered” me the perfumes. Probably due to the pressure, situation, my “kakuriputan” that led me to leave without Hayden and my picture, add the fact that we didn’t find any good finds at The Ramp. We just then headed to A/X since husband was looking for a shoulder bag. The AX’s leather bag just caught my eye and pushed husband to buy it, add the fact that it was the last piece, I won! Yahoo! I tried not to smile, because he’ll know my plan. Wahaha!! When we were on our way to watch the movie, I burst into smile and told him everything! Hahaha!

We enjoyed Unstoppable in such a way that it was breathtakingly suspense filled movie, not the horrific, killer-suspense kind of breath taker movie. The measure of breath taking-ness of a movie to me was my grip with husband’s hand, and his hand was gripped almost 90% of the time. After the movie, he went to work and I gym, thanks to my gym that’s open 24/7. It was rather, peaceful since we were just 5 there.

7-11 say sorry!

After working out, went home to rest, and went straight to school; thus this post.

Team Laman

2010-11-06T02:26:00.000-07:00

*While walking at MRT Ayala, my friends and I spotted him....

*Grins

*Sorry guys for having no updates yet... Will do after I edited somethings... Thanks!

10-25-2010 is my Brother's (wedding)

2010-10-27T03:51:00.000-07:00

*Long wordy post guys... Just a head's up.

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My parents and sister already went to Olongapo Saturday to spend the weekend there, while I need to enroll for my subjects this 2^nd semester. I’m going back to school, as per my mom’s request. It was rather, hard decision since I was supposed to be with husband at Glorietta for the opening of Nokia store for the releasing of Nokia N8. However, we were informed that our chair person/ adviser will only be there until 2pm, so I’m sad not being able to go with husband since he was really excited with the phone.

Sunday, we decided to catch a mass first at Megamall, then I went to Cubao to catch a bus at Victory Liner. It was rather a bad moment for me since the Victory Liner I went to was only servicing a route to Cagayan. The ticket officer told me that the bus to Olongapo was on the other side; walking distance. Thanks to my instinct to ask another guy, he said I need to take a bus. True enough it was walking distance; if you’re a giant. I was then relieved that I was able to take the 4:30 trip and good thing that mom’s prediction of the bus stations being crowded; not true. I wasn’t able to sleep so I just watched Bleach series.

Their famous tacos and we tried the enchilada.

When I arrived , my sister and family friends picked me up and went to The Coffee Shop (too original) house of the biggest (not to mention delicious) Tacos in Olongapo. We then went back to the hotel where they were staying and took a rest. Thank God for they have WIFI so I was able to do some net surfing.

I took a warm bath and slept in a nice cuddly bed with a cuddly comforter. I wish husband was there. Sigh. Oh, husband can’t attend the wedding because when they have a class; they can’t file leaves.

Next day, without washing our faces, even combing our hair, we went to the cafe and ate our breakfast; while taking our pictures. My brother and I then went to the barber shop for a nice clean shave. We then went back to the hotel for lunch, and photo shoot. It was rather nice to see my brother and my parent’s photo shoot. I joined in and then joined with the en

tourage. We were not informed that we need to bring shades, because the photographer has this theme “Men in Barong.” Other relatives and family friends from Laguna came around 2pm and went inside; it was raining. A couple of photoshoots here and there and merienda of espasol from Bulacan and Los Banos Buko Pie for them. Around 3:30, the immediate family members were called for the family portrait. I was really thinking of “Nanay” that time and I jokingly asked where she was.

*Sisters? Haha!

First Family? LOL.

Inside the Van. EMOTE!

Around 3:30ish, we then prepared going to the chapel where the wedding will be held. It was really, literally jam packed! The chapel was literally small, just the size of almost 2 classrooms. IT was nice though, intimate, and the decorations is really “Ate Thet” style. What made my eyes widened next was what the wedding coordinator told me; “You’ll be the first to walk.” I thank my dad and mum for sharing their kapal muks genes. I then started to

walk, as they said, not to fast, not to slow. I then waited for dad, mom and kuya in front of the altar. I was taking pictures/video in front, too bad for the wedding photographers, they were having a hard time taking pictures with me TAKING pictures as well at the same time with husband’s digicam. Hahaha!!

The advantage of the Best Man; up close and personal with the Bride and Groom!

After the mass and the ceremony ended, I got pissed with my nephew who then again in his bratty mode. He won’t go in front for the pictorial. I went to brother in law and told him to get Icez in front and gave him, you-D*%K-who-don’t-know-how to-raise-your-own-kid look. I was soooooo pissed! Since husband wasn’t there, I just focused on being the BEST Man I can be, and did my job.

The Convention Center

We then went to the Convention Center and took a rest on our table; Table #3, which later was announced that the number will be called on who will eat first! Wahoo!! The food was wahoo!! The program started hosted by Ate Thet's friend. I felt bad because the script for the program was programmed in a way that there are music that will be played when a word/cue was mentioned, but they weren't listening so the hosts have to SAY OUT LOUD the track number just for the sound system people to play the track. Epic Fail!

My plate.

the cake with the cupcake giveaways. Yes, its a big LV bag,and the cup cake designs were little LVbags too!

The program went on and I forgot all about the Best Man’s toast! I just asked the wedding coordinator and said I just need to wish them the usual happiness blah blah’s. There were videos of their childhood, then the video during the wedding to the reception and the cinematography was nice! I wish I could get a copy of the video right there and then, but of course. I can’t. I was then preparing myself since the speeches were starting and when my brother already started thanking people and everyone else, that gave me a sign that I won’t be giving my speech. A bit disapointed yes, but I'm happy that husband loved my speech and my sister and family friend Charmie gave me a thumb's up too.

Another highlight of the event was for the Single Men and Ladies to do the Garter and Bouquet thingie. There was actually a twist; to win the "garter," you need to consume/drink a baby bottle filled with water and the first one who drinks the most wins. Meanwhile, Kuya played a trick that as he was getting the garter from Ate Thet, he pulled out a red bikini! Everybody laughed as Kuya always plays pranks like that. Then, it was time for the ladies. What interested them was the one who will win the contest; will get an original LV bag. I wish I was one of those! LOL. It was actually not so fun, because there were 5 ribbons tied in the bouquet and they just need to pull it. Whoever has the last ribbon still tied to the bouquet wins. The pranks didn't stop there. The guy who won in the contest was blindfolded and the girl was replaced by my brother's bestfriend. The guy was surprised that he was about to kiss another guy!

I was surprised when I went to the men's comfort room to see this inside. It's so Ate Thet!

The give away for primary sponsors and entourage.

After the program, I got a couple of cupcakes and LV mini cakes and waited for their signal to go home. I was a bit pissed (again) because mom told me to look after the Wedding gifts (there were times before, when a couple of waiters took some of their own), but then, they will call me and asked me to join them for the photo booth shots. Anyway, it ended well, and went home, but my cousin (father side) with her husband and daughter asked me to join them for a cup of coffee.

I need to release these negative vibes so I joined them. I told them the tales about me and Jeff and how my relatives came to know about it. They also shared a couple of gay stories and I offered how many married guys and boys with girlfriends are also into boys now. We ended the night well and went home. I was excited to post the pictures, but the hotel's internet was not able to post everything. I slept for two hours before we went back to Manila.

10-10-10 is MINE

2010-10-18T01:15:00.001-07:00

Cannelloni pasta at Eat and Go

I was supposed to print a “personalized shirt” for that, but my creativity only pops up once in a while.

October 10, 2010 is my birthday celebration, 26^th celebration to be exact. I never had any “fantastic” celebrations of my birthday that I can remember except now. Since October 10, 2010 is the Loyalty Day of UPLB, during elementary there were no classes, so no celebration at school ever happened.

God is just plain good to me, he made me celebrate my birthday; when I was most financially uptight, and I enjoyed it

Saturday night before my birthday, I celebrated it with my husband and just ate at eat and go at megamall; I was about to order my favourite: Cannelloni, but since I have a discount on their main entrée, I have to change.

We went home and slept early since Sunday will be the day.

I took my family (mom,dad, my brother and sister), future sister in law, brother in law, cousin, uncle, bestfriend Baluga and husband for an eat all you can feast at Resorts World. The catch? Besides the no taking of pictures inside... The eat all you can breakfast was only up until 10am, and kids are a no no. So I owe my niece and nephew a separate treat, plus, they have to be early there since they are first time registrants so there still is the registration process and since me, husband and my elder brother are already members, I have to pay full for our meal; 400php plus per meal. I was teasing husband that I won’t eat anymore since it’s way too expensive if I’ll eat too. He was red mad, and I guess God’s gift to me too; every referral entitles me to a 25 rebate stub. They’re about 12 all in all, so I paid for my meal, almost half. Not bad!

I was also surprised that their honeycured bacon was not there! I was like ?!!?!?!? Jeff was also disappointed because that’s what we were so proud of; the pail of honeycured bacons.. (no kidding!) Anyway, they still did enjoy it and after the meal, they still can’t believe it’s only for 88php (plus tax) per meal. After they ate, they played at the slot machine since their signing up entitles them for a 100 free token at the slot machine. Meanwhile, I was still enjoying feeding the alligator inside me around 4 plates of meals; since my sister ate the other one and since it was already 5 minutes to 10, I got shy. Hihihi!!

After the breakfast, I thought they’ll still go to MOA, but they decided to go home, they left me with the big, no… the huge… no… the gigantic cake from Mernels as a treat for my MCC family and treat to my colleagues.

We also dropped by the St Therese Basilica near that place and we took a quick prayer, a wish and a couple of pictures. Lord, yung promise mo na maging milyonaryo ako, before 30... Wehehehe!!

The basilica; there was a wedding going on..

My future sister in law I love so much!

My husband I love love so much!

My brother who was on his way to Trinoma to run errands for his upcoming wedding (separate post), dropped us by our place with Balugang bestfriend. I was soooooo sleepy that time and took a nap, woke up with a nightmare (I wasn’t able to catch the MCC mass where I’m supposed to give the homily that day). Thank God it was just a dream. We then prepared to go to Trinoma since brother needs me to deliver an invitation for someone in Mandaluyong. We went there, look for Fix Salon and signed up, went to KFC and ate something to feed my alligators in my stomach and met up with brother, left the invitation, and went on ahead to Olongapo. He asked about my speech, I said I already started it, but honestly I haven’t thought of anything that time! I was about to answer him back if I could still make it as a 2^nd bridesmaid, wahaha!!

My MCCph Family...

We went back to Mandaluyong; husband went to Megamall to attend the mass while I went home to get the cake, and off I went to MCC mass. I was disheartened to see less than 20 people there, where last week it was a puffing 30 + people. Good thing Francis was back! He’s an old member where I first witnessed their first gay blessing and gay wedding aka Holy Union. The mass started and I was still praying to HIM that I hope what HE told me was correct and what I will share to them was what HE wants me to SAY. Yes my dear friends, my pastor asked me as a birthday tribute; for me to share homily that Sunday. It was rather, an honor for me to have a moment where everybody will listen to what I’m gonna say; to share the WORD of GOD. It was with the theme a grateful stranger from the Bible verse Luke 17:11-19. Thanks to OLIVE TREE .com, I was able to study the bible and pray for it everyday. We then celebrated near the eatery and ate the cake there. It was really heartwarming to see them eat the special choco cake with yema filling inside. Thanks to them, I had a second family that accepted me who I really am, without prejudice and discrimination. Where you can sing ala Mariah and Whitney and no one will give you that raised eyebrows.

After the mass, I went back to Megamall to meet up with husband. We roamed around some more and went home... The day ended well... I thought it was all, but God really surprised me some more...

One of my favorite things!

After the eat all you can, elder brother and future sister in law gave me an original Girbaud wallet, which actually made me smile. One, they know what gifts to give; two, they didn't know I'm not fond of big wallets since I already lost a couple. So husband's eyes brightened since he knows he'll have it. My colleague who just came from Macau gave me chopsticks and another colleague gave me a leather bracelet; she didn't know as well how I love bracelets so much...

Second, you know I'm not fond of shoes, but for some reason, God moved in his own mysterious ways to give me this.

Husband dis approved of me buying the one on the left because he thinks it's "jologs." However, everyone knows how I dress up; anything out of the ordinary, that's why he approved of me buying this as a birthday gift for myself.I took these pictures Saturday after me and my orgmates/colleagues had our breakfast at The Fort. I went to Gilorietta to hunt for this. I took a couple of pictures so I could show my financial adviser husband if I can buy this

and this

When I was trying them on, I noticed there was another one that God gave me... It's not yet finished but it made me smile, my hardwork is paying off bit by bit... Here's OUR gift to you guys... Enjoy... hehehe.. Exclusive to my blog friends...

breathe...

2010-10-06T17:11:00.000-07:00

Colleague 01 slash Friend :Lagi na kayong nag aaway these past few days and weeks ng husband mo, lagi nalang kwento mo at sa facebook mo , magkaaway kayo… Ano pa ang kinakatuwa mo sa kanya?

ME: LAHAT…

Yeah, these past few days, I’ve observed that husband and I’ve been fighting more than the usual. When he got mad a couple of weeks ago, (jealousy), he was cold to me for a week, and I think that was the reason why both of us weren't able to sleep. Recently, because he failed to get the measurements at home for our cabinets, table and laundry pole that mum was asking us, and he never mentioned that he didn’t understand mum’s text message. The next day, we have our anniversary party for our department and he was asking about it via text. He said I never replied, but I resend the message. I was really red mad that day. Add the fact that Friday morning, I have to take a quick nap at the office due to the work stress and office politics tension and all that jazz. I have to sleep it over and when I woke up, that’s what will wake me up.

Saturday, I went to attend the mass at Greenbelt chapel and was MORE confused, 'coz that’s what I do whenever I’m facing these kinds of dilemma. Through the homily, HE speaks to me, on what to do, however this time, I was confused. What about angels and children as intercessors? I just thanked HIM that I was able to unwind in HIS place, because before I went there, God only knows how many evil plans I have to get my revenge on husband; worse, when I get back, it’s so evil, I know he'll hate me for it. I then went to Coffee Bean to wait for Kian for our anniversary celebration of our department that afternoon and just killed the time surfing the net.

We ate and laughed our hearts out, thanks to my crazy team and all the photos, one liners, and internal jokes, that eased my mind on what happened, and made me miss him… I went home and was surprised he’s gone; I thought he went home to Laguna. I texted him and apparently, he went to the office. I woke up and hugged him and kissed him.

I just miss the old times that even if we’re already a couple, we still gave each other something; just like everyday’s a new day. I’m still thankful though for him being sweet, that whenever we sleep, when we cuddle, you’ll feel the comfort of an angel hugging you, for snoring so softly that it’ll make you smile, for the warm hugs and giggly kisses, for the laughs whenever I make funny sounds and funny faces.

I’m still waiting for that day to come (soon), when we’re both comfortable with each other, enough to say EVERYTHING, just like a bestfriend, when we can bond like brothers and love like a FAMILY.

weekend retreat and weekend date

2010-09-29T23:02:00.000-07:00

Last weekend (Sept 26,27,2010) was rather, an experience to remember. It was my first time to join the MCCPH Retreat that was held at Pansol Calamba City, Laguna. I actually didn’t know to expect, and that made me really excited. Since my churchmates were my old housemates and people who are familiar with AKik’s (a 24 hour gotohan in PRC; where they serve delicious silog meals!), since it will be my first time to taste their pansit, I bought 2 pansit bihon, 2pansit canton and 1 pansit miki bihon. I then reached the destination after a couple of hours travel and to my surprise I saw straight guys, black sando, cooking, what seems to be our breakfast. I asked IPL (Interim Pastor Leader) Egay who they were and said the guys were their seamen that are waiting to be boarded, so they’re helping with the cooking, since they’re doing nothing yet. Wahahahha!! No comment.

I went to look for my ex housemate Jed and found that he’s preparing for the first activity. The usual routine for seminars, knowing thyself, knowing others, knowing the group, etc. started the retreat, and what made me smile was the group activity where we need to do puzzles. I LOVE puzzles! I already completed a 1000 pcs jigsaw puzzles before with Tommy! And from then on, I got addicted! Since I don’t have the budget (yet) for new ones, I’m saving up for a box (okay, I’m digressing). Anyway, our group was the first one to finish our piece, since Gina, my groupmate was also fond of puzzles, plus our ever-intelligent Ptr. Regen realized that some of the pieces were missing, and we found our pieces from other groups. We helped them out to finish their puzzles and look for the missing ones.

The meal was super! Diet was a taboo that weekend, we ate, no, we slobbed our way through the meals! They ate like me! Haha! When the sun came down, it was time to discuss the history of the MCC Church and share the “history.” I already have a background of what happened, but I never got the clear idea on what REALLY happened. Starting with Fr. Mickley until today, I was able to hear everything on what happened. That night, a couple of students came and Jed gave them a crash course on what we did during the day. He hated me and Roy for sleeping through the activity! Haha! Roy and I were dead tired and didn’t notice we were already zombiefied and walked through our rooms and slept.

That morning, thank GOD I got my daily dose of protein from TAHO! I forgot to bring my Soya milk so I gulped 2 glasses of hot warm TAHO! Breakfast was served and again, I just told myself I’ll run double this week at the gym! Hehe…

It was now time to discuss about Homosexuality and the Bible. I already have an idea on what was the issue during my previous membership class before joining MCC, but this time was better since we were able to dissect the issues of Homosexuality not being a sin or a sickness. What I love about Ptr. Regen’s discussion was the research done.

There were a couple of verses that were discussed and per group; they will have to answer why it was incorrect. The participants were surprised how one word can change the history. I’ll just then post a separate entry about this one. NOSEBLEED.

After the discussion, we then prepared for lunch and the Worship service. It was a surprise to us the old members that we were just expecting 4 members, but lo and behold; in front of us are 11 –ONSE –LABING ISA - ELEVEN new members that wanted to join our family. Everything’s falling into place, this was one of those “the secret” moments I was thinking before. We were happy preparing for our trip back to Manila.

I then went to meet Kojie at Glorietta for a date. It was a long time before we enjoyed each other’s company. We decided to watch Legend of the Guardians, and bought our signature pre film watching meal: World Chicken, 1 order of Potdog Fried Siomai, Biggie Iced tea! We used to buy frosty as well, but this time, we decided to try Beard Papa’s cream puff . Scale of 1 to 5, it’s a 3. It was still early so we roam around the mall, window shopping, and decided to stay at Timezone for a couple of games. It was rather odd since there weren’t that much people on a Sunday evening. I was able to play this:

Kojie was teasing me since I was struggling with the screen since it was my first time, thanks to my bestfriend BALUGA for introducing me this game! It was fun and not to mention the music was nice! I wanna download them!It was then his turn to play, concentrating, he wasn't able to stop me from taking his pic. Aminin nyo, cute sya dito!

After the movie, we went home, and ended the night with a kiss, a hug closed eyes and cuddled to slumber while holding hands.

Ugly Segue

2010-09-22T17:06:00.000-07:00

"Last published Sept 07,2010"

Anong petsa na… Di pako nakakakpag sulat ulit ng entry, was it because husband and I fought? (Already kissed and make up), was it because the duties at work? (it’s not that busy,duh), was it because the activities during weekends? (Grandma’s 40 days, Photography workshop, etc).

I guess boredom. One of my predicaments is being “talkative” with my entries. For some reason, I can’t write “just a couple of sentences” when I do my blogs. Actually, it already lessened. I can’t believe I wrote all my college blogs at my old Livejournal when I was still doing my internship at Summit media. Plus, I’m more of a photo person; I’d rather take pictures and them tell my stories that’s why I’m more active (before) at multiply.

Before the internet, I used to write entries in my journal. Informal ones like one liners on what happened that day. However, I tried hard, but for some reason, I can’t sustain it. I’ll start off during January and I’d miss a couple of entries, until on the 3rd or 4th month. On the 5th month, I already left my journal at home.

What drives me to write back? For a not so typical guy like me: emotions. That’s where I get my drive from. Angst, happiness, sadness, excitement, lust, guilt, depression, I use these and more and cook something special to write. For some reason, emotions call upon the words and then will flow out my hands to type here. Add up my living contradiction of an English teacher with lots of grammatical errors, wrong spellings and word usage, voila!?

I’m actually at work typing this and already on my nth account, and I need to release. Not that kind of release green mongrels!? I just calmed my heart down from palpitation. Here’s why.

“You really don’t know how to write formal letters..” A colleague just told me, and its true. I have to re write and think about it like ten thousand times or more. I just finished sending an email to my supervisor, retracting my initiative to coach one of my colleagues who is somewhat slow. Let’s call him SABAW. Sabaw is married and has a daughter, from the start, he’s a good talker, and everyone fell for his cover up. When it was time to hit the floor, after his training, we noticed a slight change.

Same mistakes EVERYDAY, same pathetic, stupid, common sense-ly mistakes. Those kind of mistakes that you’ll really want to strangle him with. Those kind of mistakes that would loose the company thousands… THOUSANDS Of DOLLARS…those kind of mistakes that you (and your team) already told him not to do, will still do anyway, reminded him not to, and still do it some more, and those kind of mistakes that ain’t funny. I’m curious why the hell is he still doing this even if we already sent him coaching opportunities like hundreds everyday, and the same mistakes again and again. But wait, there’s more! It evolves to different sorts; to what looks like manipulating his stats, wreaking havoc to accounts, and by keeping the same accounts and just pending them everyday, so that it will count to his accounts worked.

You see, we’re a small group in our team, and what I love about my team is the open communication between all of us. If one commits a mistake, you can send a coaching opportunity to that person and vice versa, plus, the newbies are already improving. I told my colleagues that whenever I think of him, he reminds me of the song “Everyday’s a new day…” (when you watch at Ayala cinemas before the movie? That song…)

The first day of our coaching session, I asked him what drives him to work; he said it was his daughter. However, I want to know more why he’s not doing his job well, my first step that time was befriend him and try to get to the bottom (Sniggers) why he’s not motivated. Today was supposedly my second coaching to him, but my whistle blew.

He sent me an email reply on why he didn't visit me on my bay.

Here was his reply:
"Our coaching session is 1:30 to 2:00 from the last time we talked if you take a look at your screen shot it would indicate the time.
Next you never mentioned that our coaching is at 1:45 -2:15 you said “mamaya na “

1. Yes you did say that already, I received the email also,
2. Mistake accepted will remember next time
3. I will make notes next time
4. Yes it’s the bay area please to the time we agreed which is 1:30-2:00 please look closely at your screenshot

Yes I made the mistakes could you please double check the dates
“Please adhere to our agreed schedule if you cannot follow the schedule let us coordinate with “supervisor’s name” to re-schedule”

I was red mad...

I replied,
Sabaw,
I would like to clarify that this INITIATIVE is to HELP you, but it seems you’re unAPPRECIATIVE and you can’t comprehend what we were trying to say;
If you check the invitation I sent you and READ it in detail, you will see that the Coaching Session will actually start 01:45 to 02:15. I already placed that there because I know you want details. If you check Microsoft Outlook Scheduler, there’s no 01:45 to 02:15 time.
You want notes? Here’s what we’ve talked about.

Sabaw’s Schedule
Every Wednesday
09:45 to 06:45
2345-0000H – 1st break
0145H-0215H - coaching
0215-0315
04:45-05:00
Sun Monday off

My Schedule
2300-0800
0130-0145
0145H-0215H - coaching
0145H-0215H
0315-0415
0545H

Last Note, it’s not illegal to use common sense

My colleagues were laughing when they saw the e-mail, they told me to change it to:

I’m retracting my initiative to coach Sabaw, I don’t I’m in the best position to coach him at this point.
I’ve already tried but I don’t believe it is working and its becoming unhealthy for both of us.
It would be best to have you as our RTM to continue the coaching sessions with him.

Thank you and I appreciate the opportunity that you’ve given me.

Sabaw,

I would like to clarify that this INITIATIVE is to HELP you.

I would like to clarify some things, you told me that …

I never felt angry like this before. My heart was pounding so fast, my hands were trembling and cold, my colleagues were already worried, so one of them asked me to wash my face. It helped, but just for a bit. Supervisor logged me out and asked what happened and relayed the story.

I kept quiet and just let them talk, I just answered when they were asking something, but I was talking or rather screaming in my head...

"YOU Moron!? I did this because I want you to improve?! I'm not paid for this extra work stupid!? I'd rather leave you and do everything I can so boss can fire you!?"

Before the end of the shift, he sent me an apologetic email; I didn’t reply. He then approached me and asked for an apology. I told him this is not the right time to talk, as I’m not emotionally prepared. (Sorry, bakla lang!)

I didn’t finish my quota for today as I’m really driven to pour this out.

Whuuuuusa!!! Happy ThoughtS!

Again, my sincerest apology for that ugly segue, I just need to let my hands do the typing...

Will post something to smile about soon.

What happened last Weekend?

2010-09-07T20:31:00.000-07:00

Husband and I went to Mega to buy my new gadgie for my Sun Number; Davixz!

Then off I went to MCCPH 19th Anniversary Party.

Entry to be posted soon. Sorry guys, kinda busy; Houseband status.

The Last Straw

2010-09-02T23:10:00.000-07:00

My shoulder hurts as I just finished a gruelling 2 or 3 hours of work out. However, it won’t hurt that much creating this profile for a simple reason; lack of respect. From the start, I didn’t want another social network profile. I’ve had enough. I’m contented with multiply, blogspot, and my mini micro PLU sites.

It was then agreed (since we were “required” by the school for my Masters to have a FB account) that we’ll be creating a couple or rather, a joint account. However, it was the last straw. I MAGICALLY got untagged just because I was sooooooooo little in the picture. We already talked about this before. One event status became MAGICALLY not attending. There were A LOT of previous things that MAGICALLY happen, or disappear without me being informed.

Anyway, it was you who pushed this to be created, and you already know the circumstances and the consequences, I told you, I’m here to make you happy, but it doesn’t necessarily mean I’ve changed. I’m still that nice boy if you’re nice, be the opposite and you‘ll know what.

I’ll just make this short since there will be new notes that will come our way. Meantime, this will serve as a warning, and a reminder that I love you, but I have my limit.

You shouldn't worry though, I still will be the one to cook for you as I have promised, make you giggle before you sleep, I'll make sure you're smiling before you close your eyes, and will be doing that until your hair is white. So don't fret.

Husband

*This post was posted on my newly opened facebook account. Add up guys...

my story for theorg-y on Coming Out

2010-08-31T10:13:00.000-07:00

My HIS-story

I only got the courage to come out during my college days after I transferred from UP Los Baños to Lyceum Institute of Technology, then, now known as Lyceum of the Philippines-Laguna. After spending my time and experiencing academic freedom (from UPLB), it taught me almost everything, and I mean ALMOST EVERYTHING.

That’s when (and where) I learned to come out. It started when my lesbian classmate during college in LPL when she came out during our 3rd year. Since we’re only 12; the pioneer batch of our course, we were closer than the other courses and other BIATCH, I mean batch. Anyway, she said this will “prevent” further gossips, “Eh di wala na silang pagchichismisan, dahil alam na nila.” (Then they can’t create rumors or gossips anymore since they already know.”) That made all the sense in the world, thus, making me come out not just to them, to all the teachers, admin staff, but to other “other” students as well (I was an irregular student, so I get to sit in classes with other courses as well (these classes were block sections; they’re your classmates until the end; err.. I mean until you graduate)). That’s where I felt the respect I want as a gay student, not afraid of being bullied and getting those hi’s and hello’s without the fear of gossips behind my back. (As if I care?!)

One of those memorable coming out moments was with my GAWAD family. It was rather harder to come out to them since these people are coming from all over the corners of Laguna; from Paete, Pakil to Rizal, Fami, Nagcarlan, Liliw, Calauan, Los Banos, to San Pedro and Binan. I can still remember of giving them hints(eseses) by bringing pictures of 2005 Cosmo Batchelor Bash, and such gay things, I was already giving lots of hints actually, but since I was “that” manly, and they’re not that judgmental; they just shrugged it off. Come 2006 when I was fully pledged part of their org; I was part of their theatre and already got closer to them. That’s when I showed them my ex-gf’s picture and my (then) boyfriend’s picture. They were really giggling about it that they can’t believe I was one. Little did they know, I dated(and did) one of the old members. It was then, they loved me more. Every year, a new batch comes in and I have to think of new ways of coming out. Haha!

When I started working here in Makati, I‘ve never thought being gay is normal, like normal NORMAL. When I was in training, we were asked to introduce ourselves and showcase your talent crap and all. We were 3 straight guys, 3 straight gays and all straight girls. That’s the time where I felt respect, acceptance and happiness with what I am, and who I was. I never felt more comfortable knowing that these people know I’m gay and loves me for it, and the funny part, since I was the probinsyano boy in the metro, who looks like I just escaped fashion prison, they REALLY didn’t believe I was gay until the 2nd week of our training. GOSH!

…and the Coming out party

“Okay, I’ll treat you guys as long as you’ll promise that you’ll tell them about that.” This was my cousin’s proposal when she “confronted” me(via YM) that when she gets back here in the Philippines (she’s in the US), I’ll tell my brother, sister, and cousins(mother side); that I’m gay. DEAL! Her family was one of my closest; they’ve supported my endeavors and dreams and I’ve grown with them spiritually too, that’s why I love them so much. At a resto in Greenbelt, she treated us all, and when we finished our meals, after paying the bill, she initiated the conversation; “What did you tell mom (my aunt) “if its confirmed”?” I was getting red, and just told them; “…that I’m gay.” My brother’s girlfriend was semi-surprised because she(everyone already have an idea, duh?!) heard it straight from ME. It was then the topic that night and which included setting rules; no gowns, or cross dressing (which I’m really not comfortable doing), all and that. I told them I’m not yet ready to tell mom and dad, and too bad sister was not there, since she was my closest sibling. I was more at peace, since brother(whom I wasn’t close to begin with and I had a fight with him since I was 18) told me that he already knew a couple of years, and it was okay with it. It was another thorn removed from my heart knowing that my family, real family knows who I am.

WHY?!

With gay men having some identity crisis; I encourage them to come out. I get to have those raised eyebrows from them, thinking who am I to tell them what to do, and its okay, I understand them; especially since I’m not “them.” However, I enlighten them with what’s with coming out.

Other than my life story, this was true with my ex-bf and husband. I’m not sure if it was me who pushed them or encouraged them to come out, but it was a revelation for both of them and their parents as well. My ex, Euan, who came out to his parents now has a better relationship with them, while husband came out to his mom a couple of years back, and we can now sleep on his room, with open doors, and just last weekend, Tita woke us up to get ready for breakfast; while husband is hugging me.

One of my friend who didn’t came out, is now having a hard time coping with gossips at work. He didn’t came out the first time, and since then, until now, he’s still having a hard time coping with these; at work. “Sana sinabi ko na dati pa, para di nako nahihirapan ngayon.” (I hope I could’ve told them earlier so I’m not having a hard time dealing with them now. )

The not-so-perfect world

When I was in the middle of my identity crisis, I still have, and up to now, still regretted not telling my straight high school best friend. We were both in college, but still maintained our communication through phone every now and then. There was one time “that” topic was opened up, I don’t know why I was afraid to tell him so I denied it. During my junior and senior year, majority of our highschool batch already knew about me, because my ex girlfriend turned bestfriend helped me out to come out to our closest friends, and since that’s one big news, it spread throughout the school. Just a couple of months ago, I saw him on facebook, and since it was a couple account with me and husband, of course, by that point in time he already have an idea. I tried asking him for us to talk, but he don’t want to anymore; “para ‘san?”(what for?) He asked. It still bothers me, but I need to keep my composure. So guys don’t let that one chance pass, tell them; if they accepted you, they’re a true friend and if not, baka bekcy din sila! (They might be gay as well!) Joke! And so I thought, my ex girlfriend and her family, and her husband, and my friends LOVE me, that’s what keeps that small dark cube of sadness on the corner of my heart.

Wrapititup!

God gave you life, God gave you choices, I chose to be like this because I’m happy and I’m making others happy. It depends on your family background, your group of friends , beliefs, etc. Someone I know was actually sent off when he came out. There are a couple of gay guys whose situation calls for to be closet, and all I can say is pray. It’s hard to be in the closet; almost everyone went through that, and from what I know, and experienced, your FAITH and prayer can help.

For those whose situations are much lighter, come on, COME OUT! You’re missing a lot of things. Society are now getting more and more open about same sex, and religion is not an issue anymore, that’s why I love about MCCph. they introduced me to gay issues in the bible, and just like the revalations in the book of judas, I love the revalation of st sergius and bachus, and st felicity and perpetua. So from here, I already have something to bag me up that not everything in the bible is anti-gay. We already have our saints, they’re here for us.

It will still come down to your choice. Whether to come out or not, find reasons not to and find reasons to, finding yourself or finding your identity, it will end up to whether you want to come out or not. All I can say is life is gay, and so am I.

GTLKOmaniac of youtube

2010-08-26T19:29:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, I stumbled upon this youtube-er (haha!!)

I'm trying out his workout videos and it works!

But other than that, come on...

Don't you find him cute????

on moving and wings

2010-08-26T16:57:00.000-07:00

“Tara, lilipat na tayo ng bahay.”

Or something like that.

This is what my dad said to me/us. I felt surprised and hesitant. Lola just died and we need to move? We’ve been living in this house forever, and we’re moving EVERYTHING?! Dad said it was just a couple of blocks away. I really was hesitant, but in the same time, excited. Dad works as a contractor so he knows if the house is good. We all then started packing our things; just like that. I was overwhelmed by how much things I have! We were packing then dad invited us to visit the place first, we were walking on the streets and a couple of blocks was our “supposedly” new place!

It looked grand, it was big and spacious and just big! When I was already feeling dizzy because of its humongous space; I woke up.

Okay, back to sleep.

Then, Jaime Fabregas showed up.

A cute teenager, early 20ish, chinito, in red checkered polo was hugging him, calling him daddy, asking his permission to go with us; his barkada. He shooed him away and that’s the time that we played around. They were in a field of green grass, more like baker hall, but wider, and with only 1 tree in the middle. When we turned, there’s this abandoned old building, we went inside and we were trying to explore the building, we suspected that there’s something bad going on since we saw a couple of goons, they went hiding and we looked for them. Eventually they pursued us as we tried to escape, we were followed by the goons and then, chinito guy, removed his polo, and revealed wings at his back! Just like Archangel from the X-Men series. We were all surprised and he flew to freedom, eventually, we were able to free ourselves as well. Then, without any warning, I’m him! I felt the wings at my back, and it was kind of hard to maneuver it as we walk along the field. We went to Jaime Fabregas’ (now my dad) office and checked if there’s anything that will show proof that he’s a crook. Then, without any warning he shooed me away again and was in a hurry. I found out that there were a couple of crooks with him in the fire exit, trying to escape. I then went out as the goons were trying to catch me. I then tried spreading my wings (Yes butterfly!) and that’s when I felt I’m half awake; moaning. I was flying around when suddenly husband woke me up.

Pft.

Image taken here.

Of weekends and announcements (and special mentions)

2010-08-22T04:08:00.000-07:00

What happened this weekend was quite peculiar. I was doing my weekend to do list when Saturday morning, husband asked me to go with him and spend the weekend over at their place in Laguna. I’m already finished with my to do list- wash my white shirts, arrange my files and important documents. However, he insisted me to go with him. Out of love, and those pa-cute ways and cuddles of him; I lost the battle. I was pissed off though when he was about to text tita “Sasama si Mark pauwi dyan.”(Mark will go with me there). I was like… what the?!? You invited me even though I already have plans (STRIKE 1!) and you’ll tell her I want to go!? STRIKE 2!

We then prepared going to his hometown in San Pablo. Tita Madel(his mom) welcomed us with my favorite Beef Asado, we surprised her though with ice cream. After our hearty meal, I watched television first before joining husband for an afternoon siesta. Tita woke us up since we are to attend Joey’s birthday party; husband’s 10 year old cousin. It was rather a fun party since I was able to meet tita’s elder brother and see tita Pinky’s cute shitzus; Lucky and Jasmine. After the party, it was nice to see his whole family being warm to me especially his lola who keep on saying “Sana dito ka na every weekend!” (I hope you’re here every weekend!) We went back to their home and took a rest, I told him that we need to go before lunch since we still need to attend mass plus, I have a shift at 8pm.

Sunday morning, we then ate again, a hearty meal courtesy of his mom and we were on our way back to the metro. We attended mass at Megamall and went home for me to prepare for work. I didn’t get enough sleep and I told him not to do that again; unplanned trips. He knows how I get stressed when I don’t get enough sleep before work. STRIKE 3! I visited MCC, and boy, the room was overflowing! There were lots of guests last Sunday! Too bad I wasn’t/can’t join them. Then, before I went to work and ate “breakfast” at Pizza Hut, since I really have this nasty headache thus, the picture on this entry. A couple of friends requested that I pos t my new hairdo too.

I’m excited to join the theorg-y on Sept 1. It’s just like coming out, again… and again… and again… I’m already doing the draft because I want this to be special; just like my old coming out moments. Funny though, I have yet to email the owner of the theorg-y; he posted my “other” blog site. Hahhaha!!

Already bought groceries yesterday, excited to become a full time house-band! Cooking for husband! Tita asked me if I know how to cook, I told her not like her, but yeah, I know a couple of dishes or two, and pasta! She said she’s hoping I could teach her son (husband) on how to cook since both of them (him and his brother) don’t know how to dance with pots and pans. Inside, I just told myself, that’s why we’re here for tita…

Excited for this weekend for our GAWAD Kamustahan, Bi El (Bahay Laguna) Day and General Assembly, I miss my GAWAD family!

Excited this Friday because we'll be buying his Nokia N8 and my Ericsson phone, a bit pissed because I still can't decide which phone to buy and getting more pissed because Satio and Aino joined the list. Though, I already crossed out Xperia and Xperia Mini since it wasn't really worth the price, plus Xperia is sooooooo big. We tried Satio and Aino last Friday and damn, I really love them, with Vivaz of course.

Then, to finalize it all, we're both excited to watch Mamarazzi, of course, by our very own Eugene Domingo. YAY!

Special Mentions to!

Sheenah, and her wonderful baby Danah! Her pictures work wonders; stress and anger disappears! Smile suddenly appears!

ex-bf Euan,visited last Friday before going to a party.

Rajsh, the queen of drafts! your highness! Hahaha!!

J_ _ _ r_ _, good luck stalking, errr hunting him! Hahaha! You're lucky you're on the same building!

Death and everything else

2010-08-16T05:51:00.000-07:00

Since then, I didn’t have the time, the chance and the “energy” to post a blog entry. After my grandmother died, she took away the internet connection with her (‘Nay, no pun intended; wherever you are right now). My health deteriorated since we have “sleepless” night due to the wake, and there goes my work since I was burning hot literally the day after I went back to work, high with nausea and delirious of high fever.

One of the things I would like to post here, so that when I grow old, I’ll remember to ask myself why, my grandmother, roommate for almost 15 years, who gave my birth name, known to be her favorite; didn’t cry at all. Yes my dear friends, for some reason, I didn’t cry even 1mL of tear, not even a sniff. NADA.

I asked a couple of people around and they concluded that probably, I’ve been prepared since then. Since the time my grandmother stopped helping out in our store, since the time she stopped “arranging” cases of beer and coke (it was one of her favorite hobby,and yes, she's that strong), since the time she’s already making mistakes at giving changes to her customers, and since the time she became bed ridden, and forgot my name. Since then, I was already preparing myself, but I didn’t expect this much preparation. I’m gay, I’m supposed to be one of those who should cry the most, in one eye and all. Even my "maton" cousins were crying!

Anyway, I’m also envious of our family friend, Charmie and brother-in-law Ron since they were given those deathly moments with my grandma; aka paramdam. Charmie was visited in her sleep Sunday night (night before the Tuesday grandma died) telling her “Mamamatay na ‘ko, di mo pa ako binibista!” (I’m dying and you haven’t visited me yet!) While my brother in law(sister’s husband) was on his way home Wednesday midmorning, who was so sleepy frmo driving, decided to take a quick nap at a gas station, and when he’s about to sleep, the headlights of his card lit up so he woke up surprised; and freaked out. I joked him before he left-‘Di mo ba isasama si Nanay?(“Won’t you bring grandmother with you?) I guess he did.

It was rather a relaxing wake since I was able to take a rest from work (not from my health though; my allergic rhinitis won’t leave). I also visited Sheenah and her new baby Danah. It was rather a heartwarming moment when I saw her and the baby. My gosh, we were high school back then, we were THE couple of the batch, and now, I’m gay and she has her baby! Her sister came and I told her I’ll be meeting her crush; my straight multi talented college bestfriend who now works as a choir master at a couple of schools and a review center in our region. However,, since he's from another planet, he don't know how to reach Sheenah's place. So we ended up meeting somewhere near UPLB campus. We then ate dinner at a local diner. That’s what I miss here, local diners, restaurants and catching up with good friends.
Meanwhile, husband gave his time to rush after work to visit me/grandma at home. Even if he has trouble of death topics, I’m still thankful he went there. He talked to my sister who shared with him ghostly stories, what a bonding moment. Around 5pm I kicked him out since he still have work that night.

The week that came after, was a breather, my bestfriend and I (which we fondly call each other- Baluga), met since I want him to read the Threesome book. He’s more of a reader than a blogger, and even if he wants to, I don’t think he has the time. It was also nice when he visited grandmother wake and that’s the time I was really laughing, you see, this best friend of mine was already working during college to support his siblings, and when the time of need came; he stopped going to school and went off to work for his siblings full time. His younger sister already graduated and younger brother is on his way to graduation; and he hasn’t finished his school yet, lacking 24 units more or less. Since my family knows him, that’s where my mom came in. When he arrived, mom already gave the (jokingly)upset look, she's upset that he still hasen’t finished his school. I keep on pushing him to finish his school too. That’s what I hate/love about him. He cares for others so much, too much, that he’s being too selfless to the point of being too much. Anyway, we ate our way to Kenny Rogers, and ate our afternoon at Timezone.

Last week, we decided to eat somewhere special. We went to Burgoo to eat our hearts out, and also talked about buying additional “hardware” for our home. We decided to buy ref and electric stove last weekend. Blame it to Gourdoo’s buy one take one pan as well. We went window shopping last Saturday and watched Step Up3. It was indeed a nice movie! Well at least for me who can’t dance. Then come Sunday, due to lack of time, we attended the mass at Megamall for a change (and convenience as well), and it was nice. I still like MCC best and with runners up Greenbelt Chapel (as long as it is not on a Sunday) and Don Bosco church. After the mass, we got our haircut done, and we have another salon to cross out from our list. Too bad we weren’t able to take pictures of our new hairdo. The haircut was fine, but the service is ugh… Memo to us: STAY WITH FIX.

Farewell

2010-08-03T02:25:00.000-07:00

Sobetro "Nanay Beth" Go
March 8, 1915 - August 03, 2010

We'll miss you.
All I can say is, "Taray mo 'La! At 96 chumorva ka pa!"

Dead bored sickening bored.

2010-07-27T16:41:00.001-07:00

Dead bored sickening bored.

It’s nearly the end of the month, so we’re slacking big time, but it is to our (or rather my) advantage because for some reason, I suddenly didn’t feel well. My mantra last night before going to work was I’m good, I feel good, and I’ m feeling fine. When I arrived at work, I was wearing 3 jackets! Good thing I’m now better, since it wasn’t that busy at work, I was reading Darren Shan’s Cirque Du Freak Book 10 entitled “THE LAKE OF SOULS.” It gets boring on some of the parts so I was skipping that and went on blog hopping. I realized I need to ‘release” these things in my mind.
Last week was actually filled with dreams, from bizarre ones to again; R-18 dreams (details/story at my vaughndraye site), especially after we watched Inception last Monday, I slept the rest of the day in the office and damn I dreamt about inception!

I was to blog those “interesting” dreams from last week, but I didn’t get the time to, since we went back to Manila for my grandmother’s best friend’s birthday party.
I was walking in a village, I think it was near Umali, with my young students and went inside one of my student’s home. They were doing their project while others were just hanging out, watching television. It felt differently; emotionally, since it felt good- bonding with my students, just a bit younger. It was rather cloudy, but no rain, and a couple of minutes, I saw my old high school friends walking. (*That’s the sign I needed to visit Sheenah.)
There were a few details of several dreams that I already forgot.During the weekend, I filed my LOA for my first semester for my masters. I’ll be returning back to school 2nd semester, since I’ll be on a Friday and Saturday off. I was about to go when this groupies in black screamed at me; my classmates! I asked them,”Sino patay? (Whose dead?)” They gave me a puzzled look,and I gave one too. “You’re all in black!” That’s where they all laughed. They were on their way to eat lunch and invited me to join. I so missed them so much! After their lunch, Andrea one of my two best bud went with me to SM Sta. Mesa to create my 2nd personalized shirt with a label “von draye’ in front. She went back while I went to Cubao to buy a couple of “pasalubongs” at Breadtalk; one of the few stores we don’t have in Los Baños.
I packed my things and went to Buendia bus station, and dozed off; big time! I just woke up when I was near Sheenah’s place already! I went down, screaming and knocking the door for hours, but no answer, good thing I bumped into Shelani; her younger sister who opened the door for me. There were lots of stories, however, it was cut short since I still have to go home with my mom’s sinampalukang manok waiting for me! I was so excited for the baby to come out!
I ate like the usual “me” and went to sleep. I woke up with a smile on my face, since I miss my bed. That was it; we were to visit grandma’s bestfriend, celebrating her 86th birthday. After all the fuss, they dropped me off at the condo and prepared for mass. I was happy to see an old face, and old friend Khalel, and he brought someone with him too! We need to go earlier than the usual since husband has a shift that night, we ate dinner before his shift and made it our “celebration” but changed our minds; we didn’t enjoy eating at Tokyo Tokyo Bistro, since their veggies were just peas, corn and carrots. We gave our goodbye kiss and parted our ways. I went home, took a good night rest and woke up Monday morning.
My plan to work out didn’t push through since I was still dead sleepy around 6am, 7am and 8am! I was waiting for husband to wake up, but since he’s sound asleep, I didn’t bother waking him up. You know? When there’s this goodlooking guy at your bed, sleeping soundly (no snores!), with that angelic face, hugging his pillow, you can’t stop and smile, and you just have to let him sleep. After 2 hours, he woke up and we prepared to go to SM to buy him new shoes. I was about to go to the gym after that, however, we then suddenly planned to watch Inception. It was sooooooooooooooooo good! We went home, prepared and went back to the office to sleep. That’s when I kept on dreaming about Inception.

Yesterday was one of the weirdest schedules we had; going to work at 4am. We were scheduled for a training at 9am to 1pm. When we checked the place, there were no people. We checked with the organizer, it was cancelled. We logged in and worked for less than an hour and went home. I surprised husband since it was not in the plan for me to go home, because my next shift starts at 1am the next day, and the slow mover that I was, I planned to sleep in the office. Good thing I went home and cuddled and slept holding his hands.

Of husbands and husbands

2010-07-21T09:23:00.000-07:00

He was waiting for me in front of Mercury Drug in MRT Ayala. He was wearing the long sleeved polo I bought from Maldita that I haven't used yet, and was about to yesterday since I was conducting a training for my colleagues, but he needed it more that I do, so I ironed the longsleeve and let him wear it. It was all worth it.

After I saw him standing, I went up to him and kissed him; yes we do kiss in public. As usual, I always my peripheral vision for people's reaction. None. Good. I gave my goodbyes to my colleagues and went to our new favorite food hub; Mang Inasal. We walked towards there while holding hands, and after we were seated, he gave me the good news. He was accepted as a trainer. I was happy like hell! Finally, being the top performer (Uh, that didn't sound right. *grins), perfect attendance (no late, no absences for almost 3 years!), and garnering the highest stat in his department; which is one of the hardest department of the company.

He can't broadcast it yet since there's no formal announcement done on their department, but given the fact that the interviewer already gave him this "confirmation," I know they were also happy that he passed. I was teasing him that I'll greet him on his wall. Hahaha!! Naughty me! Since I (hope and) think that nobody on his office reads my blog; I'm just happy to announce it here!

For the past few days I was stressed out and down, but yesterday morning, everything changed. I now feel better and uplifted and I'm just so happy for him, and so proud of my husband!

Before we went home I told him to offer a thanks giving mass on Sunday and of course, we have to celebrate.

casual conversations; family edition; dad's bloopers

2010-07-20T16:48:00.001-07:00

Since it was my dad’s birthday last weekend, I would like to dedicate this post for him.

I’m not really close to my family, most especially to my dad, probably since growing up, I was more close to my grandma, sister and mom, more fond with my girl cousins and aunts. He doesn’t know my favorite food, he doesn’t even know my age at times, or probably I’m being over melo dramatic. What can I say?! I'm his gay son. Hehehe…

My dad grew up on a rice farm, at the back end of San Miguel, Bulacan, literally at the boundary between Bulacan and Nueva Ecija. He was the youngest of the 13, and the most successful of them too, (and yes, I have 12 uncles and aunts) that’s why he “thinks” that he’s always right, probably that’s another reason why we weren’t close; we’re bound by our differences and opinions.

I’d like to share those moments that he really made us(or rather me) smile, despite of his serious aura, he can as funny as (and since he looks like) Jimmy Santos.

When I was a kid, we are to drink 1 big can of Bear Brand milk everyday; that's your key to get out of the house, unless you drink your milk, you can't get out of the house. My dad too, drinks with me and my siblings. One morning,

Dad: Kuha mo nga ako nung teddy bear...

ME : Anong Teddy Bear?

Dad: Ikuha mo ako nung may teddy bear sa kusina...

ME: Bakit naman sa kusina, wala naman teddy bear 'dun?!

Dad: Yung iniinom! ?
*Mom just went out of the kitchen with the brand of milk with a bear as their logo.

Dad: Eto o!?

TOINKS!

One of the things I loved to do were read books, during my high school years when I have my allowance made it more addicting, since I have the financial power to buy me one. It was more exciting especially when my cousins in the U.S. sent me Chicken Soup for the soul series. After my 1st year in college at UPLB, I need to transfer to another school. Dad was upset that I have to transfer again, plus it was a private school so the tuition was like 7x with my tution in UPLB. He was driving us homeward bound when he was giving me a sermon when,

DAD: ang mahal mahal ng tuition mo, ang gastos gastos mo pa, bumili ka pa ng recipe book na pagkamahal mahal, 'di mo naman ginagamit!? (He's really upset here,you know)

*I can remember buying a recipe book, becuase during those times, I wanted to learn cooking, the book costs around 60php.

ME: Eh mura lang naman 'yung book, 60php lang yun.

DAD: Anong 60pesos!? 'Yung 700 pesos na book?! 'Di mo naman nagagamit!?

ME: Alin? 'Yung Chicken Soup?

DAD: OO!? Ang mahal mahal nun di ka naman natututong magluto?!

ME: ...

When we were younger (elementary days younger) there are times when dad will get so mad of all of us getting in trouble, we’ll have this “family meeting,” me, my older sister, eldest brother and mom will gather all our list of naughty, bad and wrong doings and that’s the time we’ll either get spanked or just a long sermon, depends on the gravity of the mistake. One night,

DAD: Nagpapaka hirap akong pag aralin kayo, para naman wala kayong natututunan… Para kayong di tinuturuan ng Good Conduct and Right Manners!?

*Seriously, even mom who was red mad laughed her heart out, my sister who was also mad with my older brother need to keep herself standing and hold to him since they were really laughing out hard.

Other than those top three, we still have our mini moments and "awwww" moments with dad.

Right now, we're better, (and kinda closer) that I'm not living there anymore, that we were able to buy our own place, that I was able to provide for myself, or is it because I have a gorgeous husband they think is just my buddy buddy?

*wink

Series of Unfortunate Events;on a Weekend

2010-07-20T13:34:00.000-07:00

I don’t know if it was due to the stressful Saturday morning of me arranging the training I’ll be holding for my team, or just the lack of sleep the day before, but the weekend just passed really was a total epic fail (and now, included were today’s series of unfortunate events).

I went to the gym to work out and was able to work out more than my usual routine. I was really happy since the “pan de sal” is starting to show, so happy, I took some pictures! I created a theme, geeky hunk (I was wearing glasses while taking the pictures), but I can’t post the pictures, tell you later why. I then met husband after that and decided to eat lunch. We were talking and suddenly, he had a mental block which made me red mad; he forgot where we celebrated/ate after our blessing last year.

We, or rather, I was trying to cool down so we went to Timezone since they were offering 100php for 50php only! So we killed time at this new game (Egyptian themed shooting game) WE took pictures however, I won’t be able to post it here, I’ll tell you why; later.

We then watched The Sorcerer’s Apprentice, I didn’t enjoy the movie that much, and husband loved it, we went out and was surprised to see that it was raining hard. Riding the MRT, I first checked my pockets if everything is complete; wallet-check, sun phone-check, globe phone-check, coin purse-check, Zoden-check. So we squeezed our way in and checked my things again, this time, I just told him “SUN ko” (my sun). Husband thought that I still have my sun, so he was calm, but I reiterated that I “lost” my sun, he kinda panicked. I told him to calm down since we’re inside the MRT. I checked my other pockets and it seems that “snatcher” doesn’t have enough money to go home; he included my coin purse.

I then sent an sms to Migs that I won’t be able to attend his party, I really felt bad, I wanted to go but due to the circumstances of what happened, I don’t think I’ll be able to go, all my energy level went down because of that. I just slept it off and woke up early the next day for my dad’s birthday celebration.

Sunday morning, I snuggled husband to go with me and eat breakfast at KFC at Buendia before I ride the bus to Laguna, add up to the misfortunate events; we ended up fighting and so I waited for him to finish his food, and me, hungry like a gay bear, just went to the bus and experienced the excruciating hunger, not being able to sleep, and feeling very cold and down. After I arrived, good thing my beloved (future) sister in law was there to give me a very bright welcome hug and an enlightening beso. She decided to go with me to church Sunday morning, and after the mass, we went to our local town mall since mom asked us to buy some groceries and I ended up buying ice cream too!We then went to Sun shop to block the number(since mine was on postpaid) and apparently, some stupid agent created another account under my name, and when they pulled up the phone number information, it was still under my dad’s name, plus, who created the rule that nobody else except the owner can call in and block the number… Seriously, it was just a request to block the number!? How can I call them since I don’t have a phone!? I don’t want to argue with them anymore, so they blocked it and I told them that I’ll just be requesting a new SIM once I have a new phone. This is a sign for me to buy a new phone, and that is why I won’t be able to share the pictures I took. We went home, enjoyed dad’s birthday party, went back to Manila with brother and future sister in law, and they visited our new place.
They were happy to see husband and the new place too!

It was quite early, so I still have time to catch the MCC mass as well. On my way there, my rubber shoes soles were already tearing down so I decided to go down at SM Savemore near Mantrade MRT Station to buy some sandals. After I went down to Evangelista, a lady told me I dropped something; my sandals. I went back and good thing I found it nearly taken by someone else. Glad I reached the church safe and sound. After the mass, they feast on the macaroni salad and pansit palabok I brought them, and they were all happy, though, I’m particularly happy since I saw my favorite lesbian couple Sam and Crissy were there! They’re both equally cute, beautiful, goddess-muse like kind of beautiful! We all went home and this, time I was happy that the weekend just ended.

Or so I thought…

On my first day at work, I thought I already got used to receiving escalation; apparently not. There are times when you just feel THE stress, I ended up with a very stressful day, good thing I was meeting husband for breakfast. We went home and slept. Tuesday, another escalation, plus the room I reserved for the training I am conducting was also reserved for training. I was so upset that I just conducted the training using one of my colleague’s computer. I ate my lunch and now, I’m too tired and stressed to give my 100% energy to work.

I’ll just have to mantra this out…

WuuuSsaa!!!! Happy Thoughts… Happy Thoughts… Happy Thoughts…

Pampa...

2010-07-14T20:54:00.000-07:00

KILIG!!!

I posted this last Monday morning in my Meme account, because that's the only site they are able to access at work, I told husband to access it.

Hala!? Kinilig!?

p.s.
Sorry naman sa background.
hehehehe

Threesome, and a mass on a weekend

2010-07-11T10:36:00.001-07:00

I just finished yoga class and attended the Saturday mass at Greenbelt when husband and I decided to go home since he still have work that night, while I still have a Threesome to attend to. Imagine, husband allowing me to go to a threesome event, and mind you, this was announced publicly.Anyway, it was actually a book launch of the cybercelebrities in the blogosphere (not those who have scandals pervs!). Presenting, Mcvie, E, and Migs! The moment I entered theRoom, I hurriedly purchased the book; mahirap nang maubusan.
I was holding my bookset and was waiting for the program. It was all worth it. The effort, the sleepless day, the money, everything disappeared as the event ended.

The copy of my book; in my hands!

McVie

Stella and Moi

The event also exceeded my expectation when they had their respective readings, especially “Stella’s advice” which made me fight not to cry. mL of tears nearly burst but I stopped myself from crying; no wailing. I was really touched by her entry and those kinds of mothers should have their own effigy in Luneta. That made me approached her and talk to her, I just can’t stop asking her things and I wanna hear her thoughts. That’s why I wanna thank you “Stella” for that night; you gave me a big heartfelt inspiration, nto just with my life, with my dreams and aspirations as well. You’ll always be one of those people I’ll be praying for.

A couple of the MGGFF guys.

I came alone since husband has work that night, and being the eccentric loner that I am, add up being a Libran (which they say is supposedly approachable and has the tendency to become the life of the party), I ended up bonding with MGGFF and Londonboy. I wanna thank MGGFF guys that I met at the party, I can’t remember all of your names, but seriously, like what I told Geoff; you’re a bunch of fun! I’m looking forward to meet, and talk (and take your pictures too!) to you guys. For my small world case, I was able to meet Adrian, my old multiply contact. When I saw him, I already thought I’ve seen him somewhere.They invited me to join them for dinner but I don’t have the energy to do so, I walked the Panay st. going back to MRT station and tried to absorb what just happened; but I was too blank to, overwhelmed by what just happened.

I went home and uploaded the pictures and during those times, McVie and Migs were still awake, and we were still exchanging e-mails asking their permission about the pictures I took from the event; I was starstrucked with McVie I forgot to ask his permission. I also sent them their picturesof the said event. I’m just sad I wasn’t able to talk to Nimmy, CC and the other bloggers as well, plus no signature from GIBBS! AARRGHH!! I was really looking forward to meet those three pa naman..

Sunday, I thought my happy moments ended that Saturday, however, my blessing wasn’t over yet. When I attended the MCC mass, I was surprised to see new faces, and it was nice to see that the room was filled with more than 10 people to attend the mass. The good thing about going to this church was its intimate; less people, less noise, it may be a bit unpleasant due to weather conditions, but for some reason, God was making weather changes to suit our needs. After the mass, there was part where everyone will share a piece of blessing they have that happened to them within the week. It was nice to hear God's blessing working to all of them. I went home happy since there were more people than I expected, more blessings I have heard.

MCC SUNDAY Mass

There goes my happy weekend; a threesome and a mass.

What happened?!

2010-07-09T02:38:00.000-07:00

Haven't blogged for the longest time.

So here's what happened in Glee, errr... with me...

Two weekends ago, there was our GAWAD General Assembly and that's where my busy weekend started. After an overnight swimming and catching up, I went straight to St. Therese church in UPLB to thank HIM. I then went home and found the cutest thing in the world; puppies! My aunt gave us one and she was named Princess, though, they ought to change that since one of our niece' name (from my father side)is the same. I suggested to name her Duchess.
I then surfed the net since I haven't checked my mails and thingies for the longest time. It was really hot that morning until after lunch, I was sitting in my bed and felt sleepy. I then went to sleep around 2pm and woke up around 5 since it was raining. I woke up around 11pm since it was then too cold, that my throat was already dry; and I was coughing. Damn, it was like the whole year's weather in one day. My brother who was on his way back to Subic, gave me a ride until Makati, and that's where I kept on sneezing and coughing.

Shoot.

That week was also stressfully sick. There were some updates from work so from our usual 100 accounts per day, we got to work 300+ worked accounts on a Monday shift. Then, come Wednesday, I have to go back to Los Banos, Laguna again since we have a little reunion; my cousin from the US. Since I didn't and wasn't able to file any leave that day, I still have to go to work that night. What killed me more was I found out that the puppy was gone. That Wednesday morning, Duchess was gone. Damn, I was really sad since I wanted to play with her some more...

The week passed and the week's highlight was when husband and I went to Resorts World that Sunday morning and ate our hearts out at their buffet breakfast. It was actually nice since the membership is "free," you just have to register on their online website and go there with your valid government issued ID and presto! You have your membership ID! It comes with two coupons; discount at their buffet breakfast at 88php (exclusive of tax) plus free 100php tokens for slut errr.. slot machines. I lost 200, husband won XXXX php. hehehe.. We then went to Megamall to check out the sale. Damn sale! I was forced to buy glasses, and oven toaster. We dropped by CDR King as well to buy my netbook keyboard protector and fan, and we decided to buy a Vision Board, so we could post what we want to have; The Secret. We went home, he took a nap since he still have work that night while I prepare for MCC mass.

This week was pretty boring since nothing much happened. Since I wasn't able to work out last week due to my cough and colds, I started my Monday with a work out and I mean work out! Husband and I also decided to visit the new gym I was eyeing here in Pasig; the 24/7 Eclipse Gym.

Tomorrow, I'm excited to attend the Threesome; Book Launch of my favorite bloggerettes! too bad husband needs to go to work. pft.

Casual conversations; Work Edition; Laugh Trip

2010-07-08T14:49:00.000-07:00

Sorry guys, haven't posted/updated yet this blog space of mine, was sick, was busy and getting more busy.
Anyway, I would update you guys in a while, I want to share this first with you.

In our line of work, we call our customers to validate if the activities on their account are indeed valid or not. Our company, (and don't quote me on this one) holds security as one of their priorities for their customers. So one of my colleague was talking to a customer when...

Fraud analyst : We're just calling to validate these....
Customer: Can I talk to your supervisor?
Fraud analyst : May I ask why why do you want to talk to my supervisor?
Customer: Because I want to
Fraud analyst: Oh, because we need to introduce the call to our supervisor.
Customer: That's between your supervisor and me. How's that?

One of the reason why I love my job is you just can't ask for a supervisor just like that. We're from the fraud department and escalations are

Our eyes twinkled because me and my colleague ~~will have~~ just had our training to for escalation requests from our customers.

Fraud analyst : We're just calling to validate these....
Customer: Can I talk to your supervisor?
Fraud analyst : May I ask why why do you want to talk to my supervisor?
Customer: Because I want to
Fraud analyst: Oh, because we need to introduce the call to our supervisor.
Customer: That's between your supervisor and me. How's that?
Fraud analyst: Oh well, just two seconds ago, I just got promoted; I'm NOW the supervisor, how's that?

Just thinking aloud; me as a "crossdresser"

2010-06-22T15:36:00.000-07:00

I just realized a couple of weeks ago.

I can still remember "declining" my friends from MCC to “crossdress” for our annual anniversary. I’m really not comfortable wearing a gown or other ladies or girl clothes, and I believed (Wow! Parang pang Mr. Gay Pageant!) that being gay doesn’t mean that "we" want to become a girl/female; as I further explained to some of my colleagues, being gay (also) means you have certain feelings towards the same sex, without wanting to be the opposite sex. I still want to be a guy, its just; I want guys.

So, wearing girly girl clothes is a no-no for me; that was what I thought.

I was searching for some favorite shirts in my closet and found it; a small sized white shirt with the word “Angel” and a heart design, plus a picture of a guy sitting down with some “emo” writings on it. If I wear it, it becomes a bit of a muscle shirt, since it fits me “perfectly,” and it struck me. I remember declining several times with my friends and old housemates, and I just realized that I’ve been “crossdressing” since 2008ish.

*Picture at that old glorietta gone to dust. I miss that place.

Here’s a picture of my former partner when we bought a shirt with the same design; the salesladies were surprised that we were able to wear it. (*One of my kikoy rule in a relationship is to have a shirt with my then partners with the same design.)

*Taken last December 2010; Christmas party.

Then the same store released a series of white shirts with nifty designs, and they’re selling those for 99php for girls and 150 for guys. I actually tried one and it fits! However, there were a couple of angles when you look at me, that makes me looks gay, but hell, I am one! What differ was I still I “act” manly; achooo! Hehehehe…

Come to think of it, being "slim" is not all that bad, we get to buy "cheaper" lady or girl clothes which is about 50% cheaper than the usual guy shirts you see around

Nothing, just sharing some thoughts.

I dreamt about Tommy

2010-06-11T16:21:00.001-07:00

*Wallet size pictures with him. So highschool... girl! Hahaha!!

Flashback

Tommy aka Bryner was one of my ex. He was the one who I met at Galeria when I semi-ran away from home. I was roaming around galleria when he followed me. He was cute and all, but still, I was suspicious.

Later on, he introduced himself as Tommy and the rest was history.

Yesterday, I dreamed about him, he was wearing a black shirt with Gold’s Gym Trainer printed on it. I was with my husband during that time and he was with someone who seems to be his hubby. Kojie was gone and his hubby also left him so it was just us and we were to catch up, but he was on his way to work. I actually left him the last time we saw each other was when he fetched me at school during my college years(FYI; he’s from Tandang Sora) and asked me out. We broke up since he was too immature for me, even if he’s a couple of years older than me. I asked him if he wanted to talk, but he said he’s late for work and left in front of the jeep, and the scene faded away; I woke up.

It was still early.

I went back to sleep, and he was there again. This time, we have the time to talk. He invited me to his place; he was renting a small place in Cubao, near MRT; and it was literally an MRT coach beside a house, he opened the sliding door and went inside. It was cozy and we were talking; I can remember asking him how did he bulked up since he had a lean body before, and this time, he was muscled up! We missed each other so much that we both were happy to see each other. He changed his clothes and stripped naked in front of me. Besides being muscled up, something else got bigger; Whew! I was sitting on the floor and there he was, tall fair, abs, muscles and all. He dressed up and then he asked for a kiss; he was about to but didn’t because there was an old man, probably his grandfather, outside his window checking up on us. He then asked to visit my place and so we agreed. We went outside and went to ride a pair of chairs, facing each other and that moves like those chairs for disabled people; but this one was moving in a very long rail. We were moving and funny, it was quite Cubao-ish environment; without the pollution. I was surprised to see one of my friends from my social-civic org with his “girlfriend.” In no time, we were at the ground floor of what was supposed to be our condominium. We were about to go up, but I woke up; again. This time, I didn’t went back to sleep. It was a couple of minutes before my alarm goes berserk.

Damn, now I missed my ex, he was the sweetest of the them all.

It’s time to use the Secret again.

Casual Conversations, Husband Edition, Laugh Trip at Home

2010-06-09T03:06:00.000-07:00

We were about to sleep a while ago when this happened.

The building,for some reason, actually has nice ventilation that i'm still able to use my comforter/ blanket. He was already in bed, and I'm preparing to sleep as well when...

*Vondraye turns the dial on the fan to number 3.

Kojie: I number two mo na lang... (serious tone)(Just switch it to number 2)
Vondraye: 'Di pwede eh, Kelangan 3. (I can't, it needs to be on number 3)
Kojie: (*Already getting upset tone) Baket kelangan 3 pa? ang lakas sa kuryente, malamig naman. (Why does it need to be on number 3? It consumes too much electricity and it's quite cold, so there's no need.)
Vondraye: Kasi, "I love you." (Becuase ,"I love you.")

He literally laughed out and giggled like a highschool girl because of that.

Since we're about to sleep, I might forget "this," so I wrote this and texted it to myself, so here it is guys, some of those little things that keeps us together.

I was moved.

2010-05-31T09:33:00.001-07:00

MOVE
Yep, we were supposed to move in to our new place June 10-13 to give way for proper rest and ample time with the move. However, for some unknown force, which I think you call excitement, we decided to move last weekend. Dad was free that time so we scheduled the move starting Sunday morning.

I was moved.
Last Saturday, it was also a big move for our team since we had our first team bonding with the new comers (*grins) and ate at Gerry’s Grill at MOA and had bowling after that. It was an afternoon filled with fun, laughter and food! Colleague said: “ ‘Di pala magandang kombinasyon ang tawa at busog,”(Full and laughter is not a good combination ), since we were literally laughing our heart out from lunch time to the bowling game. We really had fun and it was nice everyone was happy. After that, I hurriedly went home, while husband and I slept together (since he still has shift that night) and I woke up around 3am, ate breakfast and start packing my things.
I called up dad that morning confirming what time will they arrive. We then took a rest for a while, ate breakfast while watching Naruto Shippuden’s latest episode. Kojie took a catnap since he’s been lacking sleep lately while I arranged some of my stuff and watched the earliest episodes of Naruto Shippuden. We were surprised when we got knocks on the door, we thought it was the landlady; it was one of dad’s helpers. We started packing up and preparing the first batch of the move: Clothes, shoes, our kids dumped in a big toy kingdom plastic bag, bags. We then unloaded first everything and left to megamall to eat lunch and buy some additional home and bathroom needs and to pick up the bed mattress.
I was moved.

I’m not close to my parents, and my family, but that day was quite happy. I’m that guy with spontaneity and humor combined and it quite showed up last weekend, which made my mum and dad laugh more than the usual. There are times when I’ll joke with my mom, holding her hand, “Oh, bawal magturo ha, hawak sa kamay ko baka mawala,” talking to her like a kid, dad gave a couple of laughs.

I was moved.

We dropped by the place, dropped off the mattress and went back to Makati city to transfer everything what’s left. Kojie’s big TV, cabinet and the rest of my “trash.”I was able to catch some catnap on our way back, I was groggy because I took Sinutab which really made me really sleepy. It was around 4pm and bought them snacks, half worried since hubby was still there. I told him to prepare and go so that he still have some time to rest, he then left and they made some measuring since dad will come back to add cabinets,etc. After a while, they left and went back home, while I was left with all the things, still in their plastics, boxes and bags. I took a quick shower and went to Sheenah’s Baby Shower. It was nice to catch up with them, and listening to a pregnant woman tell her stories really made me smile and “at peace.” We were joking like before and were happy that her husband got a new job. I was really thankful that after all the blessings God gave me, He’s now blessing the people I love; my friends.

I was moved.

Monday, it wasn’t the start of the week for me, yet. My week starts at night so we finished unpacking our things, cleaned the place and went off to buy some additional things needed at home. However, we didn’t expect it’ll take that long so we weren’t able to buy the things and just went back. I was so sleepy and asked him to wake me up. He still lack sleep, and since he doesn’t have work tonight, I asked him to wake me up. He woke me up, but I went back to sleep again, and woke up quite late. Good thing I wasn’t late. I still had time to eat “breakfast,” and prepare for my work. It was rather a tiring, but memorable, not to mention exciting weekend for us… oh, not to mentioned I was moved.

Habeebbeerdae Husband!

2010-05-27T12:35:00.000-07:00

I was typing “this” post last Tuesday, from another PC (*another story, but to make the long story short; I got caught “typing” a blog entry before so I can’t post more than the usual like before), and I for got to save it. It was my 14th hour work; I OT-ied myself until 10am; my work starts 8pm.

On with the story, I am posting my post birthday weekend blast with husband, and it was rather peculiar since “nothing” surprising to share, but still worth to share.
After my last day’s shift, I was supposed to meet husband’s mom; Tita Madel at Megamall, we arranged that I’ll be waiting for her since I out earlier from work than husband; I finished at 5am and they suggested I sleep first. I declined; because once I get to sleep, good luck waking me up. I just decided to find a store that was open that early and found myself hanging around McDo at Megamall, good thing their WIFI was up and running that time.
I waited for husband and tita at Mcdo, it was rather, unpleasant morning since there were lots of jejemons and emo punks around the seat I took; wearing black and all. Apparently, there was an autograph signing at Oddysey of a band that I don’t know where the hell they came from,. The door opened, and they went screaming like it’s the end of the world. I hope it was for them, call me mean, but if I’ll get a hold of that Deathnote; I’ll start with Jejemons and those emo punks.
On with the story.

We then waited for tita and when she arrived, the Nokia booth said hello and since her phone gave up on her; hello new phone! She then went to EDC (sister company by ESPRIT) and bought some new clothes, while trying on several clothes, Kojie and I tried on several attempts to get a nice shot from the fitting room, but I’m not 100% confident it was good since I look haggard; I ended up taking our pictures with shades on. More pics here.

*Tita, hubby and me.

*Waiting for tita try out her wardrobes.

We were so hungry that time, that we ate at Cabalen, and tried their eat all you can, we were so full, and continued walking around, his mom continued shopping for a couple of essentials, and it was fun making the sales ladies talk about us; 2 guys walking around, lady in front, two guys HOLDING HANDS. We kept being mushy and from my peripheral vision, sales ladies kept on whispering to each other, and pointing at us. Haha!!! I wanna take a picture of their faces, priceless! When tita was about to try some clothes on, we were talking and these 3 ladies lined up in front of her on the other side, they were about to take her place and the lady managing the line asked who was next, I loudly told her its tita, I saw the third fat lady, who seems to be buying the cheapest blouse that was available, do some facial expressions, Husband then came into the scene and asked in a loud voice, “may naningit ba?” They all looked behind and saw him towering at them, and shut up. Haha!! Don’t mess up with two tall GAY guys! It was really a funny scene and tita was walking like a queen with two prince behind him. Haha!We ended the day and I then went straight to the office for my Rest day OT, while tita went home to San Pablo City,Laguna.*Hubby, a techie boy, teaching his mom explore her new phone.

Sunday, I went home and slept, woke up around brunch time, ate brunch with him at Chowking and went to prepare for our own date. Our original plan was to have dinner at Resorts World for their famous (at least for my workplace) buffet meal, however, since he was sleepy, we ended up eating at Wendys, it was fun because sitting beside us were 2 boxes of newly bought rubber shoes. We attended the mass at Greenbelt chapel, before…

*My birthday gift to him; I let him buy me a new pair of shoes, the white Nike one.

Rewind
Remember I shoes issues? Here’s my birthday gift to him; I agreed to let him buy me a new pair of shoes. I chose the most inexpensive one since he’ll be buying one for himself as well, so on his birthday; we both have new pair of shoes. That’s before watching Shrek –Happily Ever After. We ended the day and went home, it was indeed a fun and memorable; in many ways than one.

(Not to mention the catastrophe that happened in his facebook because of that.)
Short story: his Facebook became our couple account; 1 account with both of our names on it, my friends thought it was my birthday so there were lots of wallpost greeting ME; and he’ll reply “It’s not his birthday, his birthday is on ….)

Habeeeerday Husband!

Casual Conversations; Work Edition; Laugh Trip

2010-05-27T12:24:00.000-07:00

I'm still that straight looking guy at the office, polo shirt, slacks, walks like a guy that kind and all. I tend to speak flambouyant at times, but there are also times that I talk and sound like a real guy, thus the confusion with some ladies thinking I like them. TSE!

However, during work, we do a couple of call outs to our clients and at times, I do sound like a real man; deep voiced and all.

That's why...

Straight Colleague 1: Kaya mo ba yung katulad ng boses ni mark? Yung parang lalake? Yung mababa? (Can you mimic Mark’s voice? Like true straight guy? Deep voice?)

Gay Colleague 1: Ayoko, masakit sa lalamunan… (I don’t want, it hurts my throat)

WAhahaha!!!!!

Casual conversations; Work Edition; Laugh Trip

2010-05-24T16:17:00.000-07:00

My colleague is getting married in a couple of weeks; literally.

Story 1:
My colleague-soon-to-be-wed brought the wedding invitation for the team, it was actually nice for an inexpensive price. However, while we were browsing the invitation, I was surprised to see at the last page, patches of “corrections” covering the incorrect time and dates. One reads: Registration will be open at 2:30 in the afternoon. The party starts at 3:00 in the evening. So don’t be late your presence is crucial, because it just won’t be the same without a special guest like you…”

Story 2:
My supervisor is also getting married by the end of the year, and she chose some of us as her ushers. While reading my colleagues invitation, they went to the RSVP part and said,

Supervisor: Employee 1, I’ll assign you to be in charge of contacting my visitors and informing them RSVP.
Employee 1: What’s RSVP?
Supervisor: (Looking for words) You know, that they need to respond…
Employee1: Like “In case of emergency?”

Epic fail.

Casual Conversations; Husband Edition-Laugh Trip

2010-05-22T10:33:00.000-07:00

Kojie's mom went here to join us celebrate Kojie's birthday celebration today (tomorrow is his birthday). Tita Madz then went to EDC; Esprit's sister clothing company and was shopping for clothes. I've been here since around 7am since I don't want to sleep, and I can't sleep 'coz if I do; I won't wake up. So I was kinda hungry and my stomach is already grumbling.

Kojie keeps on teasing me, poking me, and all those child-like teasing that they do. I asked him to stop because its creating some kind of reaction in my stomach, and its hurting mo.

*image taken this morning at edc,
Kojie is getting impatient
while his mom tries
several blouses on.

Vondraye: "Tumigil ka na please? Please lang... May please na oh? please? Nagloloko na tyan ko, please tama na, okay please?" (Serious, upset, snobbish tone)

Kojie:" Huh? Bakit? Anong joke ng tyan mo?"

TOINKS....

Seriously, its deadly corny, but my world turned upside down and laughed. He laughed at me LAUGHING hardly at his corny joke.

Maybe its because it was too corny, maybe because his cute smile, or maybe its just because I miss him....

Casual Conversations; Work Edition- MOVIES

2010-05-13T11:58:00.000-07:00

Me and my colleagues were talking about movies and here are some of my colleague's bloopers.

Straight Colleague 1: P*%Ta nakakabad trip yung isang movie ni Jim Carey at si Ewan McGregor... yung gay movie nila?! yung I love you Marlboro!

Straight Colleague 2: Ano nga pala yung movie na tungkol sa Pearl Harbor?
Everyone: Eh di, Pearl Harbor!?

I included my colleague's pictures so you can imagine the people I talk to during those boring hours; just like now.

Question is, who am I among those? hehehe

Casual Conversations; Work Edition - BRIS

2010-05-11T16:02:00.000-07:00

Introduction

When I was in college, it was my dream to enter the College of Dev Comm at UPLB, my grades passed but I was not able to get in the cut off for the 1st semester. However, everything went to ashes when unknowingly, my mom found "ways" inside to get me to 1st sem, and guess what, she enrolled me to AgChem (Agricultural Chemsitry; 5 years, quota course). So there, I was not able to get into Dev Comm for my college.

Flash Forward

My colleague was a Devcomm student and was also a member of the Dev comm Soc, he said...

Colleague1: I hope you were a Dev Comm student and would be my bris.

I asked him again...

VondrayE: whaT?

Colleague1:BRIS; Brother Sis! You're not A "Brod," you're not a "Sis." BRIS!