*in whisper* THE SECRET... THE SECRET...

• I need to pass a book review this Saturday for my Information Technology Subject. I WILL PASS ONE or my prof will cancel it for another week, she'll be absent, or just forget about it.
• Aparrently it was extended until March 20, yahoo!

• We need to pass a Chapter 1 of a Research Project, just like the Chapter 1 of a thesis. Problem is? I don't have a problem. I already sent proposals, all rejected. HE WILL approve one by the end of the week, and I'll get a high grade, let that be a very high grade.
• He did approve my proposal, stupid me, I looked everywhere and what I really want was in front of me; Gay Bloggers!

• The Masters in Communication will go to Zambales March 6, 2010. EVERYONE WILL GO! (Hear that Andrea?!)
• PFT.

• The Secret... The secret..

MY biggest "small world case"

*This is the story of our two daddies!!!!

The biggest small world case I’m too much busy thinking of the blog itself that I forgot that the

biggest small world case is my husband. Here goes.

FLASH BACK

It started around 2006, I was about to graduate and already doing my thesis and about to graduate and during those times, I’m in the middle of my gay college life. I met him through guys4men, he left a message and when I clicked on the photo, my eyebrows raise and went to the highest level. I asked myself, is it possible? Is it really him? I probed for more questions and confirmed it was really him.

Flash back to the 2nd power

MJ was one of my childhood bestfriend, we both have the same first name;MARK, and we shared common interest, I was actually lucky enough because during my childhood days, I’m quite soft and a bit effeminate, but he stayed beside me, even if everyone knows how cool (and straight) he was. He’s one of those cool guys that’s on top of the class, everyone respects, that and all. I first met his older brother when they got into the argument, I went to him and they’re already nearly shouting to each other, after some time, his brother left. MJ’s brother is taller, looks like him, and talks like him.

*Family portrait; MJ-the childhood bestfriend, Tita Madel-their super cool mom. Jeff-my life.

FAST FORWARD (not so distant past)

We exchanged phone numbers, and during those time, he was still staying with his mom at San Pablo while working in Batangas. He said I was familiar to him, and since he was surprised I know A LOT of things about him, he then finally concluded that I was indeed, his younger brother’s childhood bestfriend.

I just came from a 2 guys-one week love affair, so during that time, I was healing my zombiefied heart. We started as friends with 50% MU, we dated, we went to each other’s office/school, I introduced him to my friends/ex-gf(yes, I’m THAT close to my ex-gf that I introduced him to her!), etc. Then later on, we decided to take it to the next level, we became a couple. He accepted my flaws, all and that and I laid out my cards. It went on for almost a year... ALMOST. during our 10th month, he can't bear what I was doing, being the jerk that I was, plus I was falling out of love. I prayed for a sign and HE did gave me one; I'm already hurting him and I need to stop.

*Tita Madel's birthday celebration last year.

FAST FORWARD (present)
Last December 2008, we started seeing each other again, during the Simbang Gabi series, December 17, I received HIS message, I'm the chosen one to make him happy. By that time I already grew up, learned a lot of things from my exes and like I said, a message from HIM. HOW? Through the priest's sermon/ homily.

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I owe it a lot to Fr. Jun Sescon of the Greenbelt Chapel. Whenever I feel down, feel bad, or I need a sign/ message from HIM. He answers them through Fr. Jun Sescon.

December 17, 2008, homily. He preached that if we will be bringing the Joseph-Mary love affair to the present date, everyone might raise their eyebrows to Mary. She got pregnant, not with Joseph, and Joseph needs to marry her and needs to take care of the child, that's not his. He accepted that big responsibility of taking care of a child that's not his and taking the shame of being a father to someone that he was just told will be his wife. Imagine that in our present time with a At that point, I realized that Kojie was given to me not because of anything else but to make him happy.

BACK to our REGULAR PROGRAMMING...
Things changed this time, after we got back, we didn't count how long we've been together, for some reason, we were happier and everyday is like a new day for us. When he moved in to my place, we became happier, and last year, the best time we had was our 1 week date slash Kojie's birthday celebration and vacation at Boracay, when we went to Subic for Ocean Adventure and Zoobic, and of course, when we(our relationship) had been blessed by MCC Philippines and Kojie's mom and aunt, together with our close friends, colleagues, and churchmates went to witness, taking our relationship to the next level.

*Pastor Regen Luna performs the Rite of Blessing.

*What everyone was waiting for; including Jeff's mom who was taking a video of it.

One of Kojie's mom's surprise to me was when she brought out our childhood elementary pictures. During our elementary days field trips, his mom took some pictures and we were really young back then. She also gave me a Christmas gift last year, and that's when I felt, I'm already part of their family. I'm really thankful for her understanding and her sweetness towards Kojie and I, especially when she cooks oh-those-so-heavenly dishes!

Meanwhile, my parents already have an idea, but since I'm not "that" close to them, no confirmation yet. My cousin asked me to come out at least to my brother and cousins, and so I did, they already met Jeff during my grandmother's 94th birthday, they all loved him (of course!).

*And the two prince lived happily ever after.

Right now, we're enjoying each other's company, getting familiar with each other more and more, and creating the promise of happiness for each other.

yep, it's a small lotsa-lovin' world after all...

*pictures to follow

Casual Conversations with Classmates -School Edition

Setting: It was during our 3 hour class and we asked for a 15 minute break before the exam.



Guy Classmate : "Labas lang ako, yo-yosi lang." (I'll just go outside to smoke.)

GirLandi Classmate: Sana, pwede rin sabihing "Labas lang ako, manglalalake lang." (I hope, we can also say, "I'll just go outside to flirt with guys)

Rent-view (REview for the Rent Musical)

3 stars

3 times the tears

3 memorable characters-Joanne,Angel,and Tom collins!

3 memorable scenes La Vie Boheme, I'll cover you (reprise), Seasons of Love

3 favorite songs: Seasons of love, Will I, Light My Candle






For rent!

My histo-rent came about when an ex-heartbreaker introduced (and sang to) me "light my candle" (too bad not like the way Mimi did). He suggest I watch the movie RENT, and during those times, when Glorietta 2 was still open and there was this store selling cd near the Landmark entrance, I already forgot the name of the store and that's where I saw the CD rent, I bought the said CD and since then, everyday, I'll fast-forward it, if memory serves me right to 01:29; the start of seasons of love.


3 memorable characters-Joanne,Angel,and Tom collins!

I thought, even if a blind man watched the Rent Musical (Feb 7,2010 8pm show that is), he can still pinpoint where Joanne was. Her voice was so powerful, at the same time beautiful that if I'm a 3rd person from myself; I'll see myself automatically smiling whenever Joanne sings. Her character was portrayed well. Too bad for some reason, my mind/spirit/soul wandered off and was not able to catch her during the Take Me, or Leave Me performance. However, I'm happy that I was able to vatch her during her performance in the Seasons of Love, especially her solo part, she made my smile bigger 1 inch wider! The Angel-Tom combo has this chemistry that really blew me off and made me go "Awww..." Even if there's no french kissing involved (which was shown in the movie), you can feel the love between them! They're so sweet together!


3 memorable scenes La Vie Boheme, I'll cover you (reprise), Seasons of Love
Some(blogs,reviews,comments) say that their La Vie Boheme lacks energy, I don't know about them, but in my case, my partner keeps on poking me since I've been dancing with the cast on stage, I keep on nodding my head when they were dancing in their table and loved it especially when they depicted the Last Supper! Haha! I was expecting more dances in the table though, but nergy? I felt it. I'll Cover You was also one of my play favorite, but not my favorite song/ scene in the movie, but I just love how they sang the song to each other as if they really meant it, and I don't need to elaborate more! They did the same Seasons of Love song number in the movie, except that they did that in the middle of the program, after the first break, they did the line up, dark background, lights on casts theme. aylaveeet! err.. ehem.. I loved it!

3 favorite songs: Seasons of Love, Will I, I'll cover you (Reprise)

They were able to give justice to their version of Seasons of Love and Kudos to Joanne! Damn, she made me cry! Good thing it was dark, even my hubbie wasn't able to see that I was already crying! Even with "Will I", they sang the song with much sadness and feelings. I can't express more how much I love those songs! I just do! I'll cover you (Reprise) when Angel died was also one of those songs that made my tears trail down. Tom Collins did a good job letting us feel what we SHOULD feel.

3 FAILS? Roger,Mimi,Maureen

Like I said, this is just my personal opinion. I was expecting more from these three main characters. I don't know if I expected to much, or I was expecting them to copy the original ones in the movies, but for me, these three are the reasons why my smile faded once in a while when I was watching them sing. I can remember Maureen expecting people to "mooo" with her, but when I look around, it seems no one's convinced. I was expecting her (or the audience) to moo. With Roger and Mimi, I don't know, they just don't seem to capture my taste. I was looking forward to see their performance with Light My Candle and.. rather not talk about it. Anyway, just sharing.

Why 3 Stars?

WORDS. There are times when some of them were eating their words so I can't decipher what they were trying to sing or say. Worse, I already know some of the songs, so my mind already predicted what they were about to say. Worst, there are times when I just can't plainly understand.

EMOTIONS. For the lack of it, for not feeling it, not expressing it and no existing emotions in several scenes and song numbers.

TICKET PRICE? I don't know, I just felt and find it not worth it.

My small world.

Life is full of ironies, coincidences and all that weird stuff, but one of the things that makes my life interesting (besides all the deja vu I encounter almost everyday), is my "it's a small world" moments.

Small World case #1

Back in 2005, I was a die hard fan of Brent javier, my die hard fan moment was it was our photoshoot for our youth-org in Laguna, and our homebase was in Magdalena, Laguna, it's 15 minutes away from Liliw, Laguna, almost 3 hours away from Manila and I went to Megamall that day just to attend his "meet and greet" courtesy of Watsons. I also intend to meet my friend who was also a brent javier fan that day. So we did, took a picture, and was happy and GAY! haha! I was also active in yahoo groups dedicated for his fans.

Fast Forward.

I am now working with a financial company and in our office, teams and schedule change quarterly. I then was able to team up with this gal whose known for having celebrities for friends, and was an agent of basketball players before. One random day, she stood up and asked me if I'm a member of a yahoo group. I told her before I was active but right now its more on personal yahoo groups(my youth org, and school use). She sat down and that's when it dawned at me, I remembered the name that keeps on replying to the fans/members of brentfans yahoo groups; hers.She was Brent's manager. From then on, we became close and was able to meet some of her other celebrity friends., but not Brent, she's not managing him anymore.

*picture with the idol, and yes, it was a film camera, explaining the bad shot.

Small world case # 2

I'm not a party animal, Im more of a home buddy. I'd rather watch tv, dvd, play games in my pc, rather than go to bars. My ex-housemates would blackmail me to go to one when they go out. It was my 2nd visit to a prominent bar in Makati, this goes way back 2007, and as usual, my insecurities heightened as these cute guys dance and lurk around. Im so not used to cute guys around me. Then, there's this cute Lil boy toy who asked a common friend for us to be introduced. I thought "familiar name." Being the "Dory" (read:short term memory loss) that I am, I just let it pass, I know I've heard/read it somewhere but what the hell. He was really cute! I can't stop smiling just by talking and looking at him! He then invited me to go upstairs to talk. We got into the usual get to know each other kind of conversation. I admired him for being a writer and a UP student, and our conversation went on further and I found out who he was; my eyes widened. shit.

Backflash

One of the perks of the original guys4men site was the forum. Books, music, sex, travel, etc, almost everything was there, in the book section, I found my group of readers. I'm a light reader and whatever is famous and known to everyone; I read. When I saw that there were lots of gay guys reading the book Orosa Nakpil Malate, I bought one and read it.

Flash forward.

I was talking to louie mar. Louie Mar Gangcuangco.

*do I need to explain further?

Small world moment #3

When I was still in high school, I'm already fond of taking pictures, that's to answer my short term memory loss. I tend to forget lots of things, so I get to keep the memories; with pictures. During my college days, I was lucky to be selected to represent our school for Tambayan-on-Air; a radio program dedicated for the youth where members are composed of SK from all over Laguna, and students from different schools. We had our training in one of the resorts owned by our governor that time. During those times, I had a crush with one of the trainers, a student DevComm student from UPLB let's call him Riggs. He has this curly short hair, boy toy look, and always has a smile in his face.

Fast Forward.

When I started working here in Makati City, a friend of mine helped me out getting a bed space in one of the boarding houses here in the metro. He already told me that we're 6 in the room and 3 of them were old UP students; he didn't tell me "Riggs" was one of them. I was sooooo in heaven seeing him topless once in a while. Heee HEE!!

Small world moment #4

During my college days, I had a love affair, let's name him JELO(not his real name). Every now and then, I'd visit JELO in Sta. Rosa, Laguna where he lives. It was summer vacation so I was able to spend time with him. One fo his friends, Gibz, was honest enough to tell me that JELO, while were "dating" has a bf, I was devastated (the usual, crying over the phone, all and that), and like every gay guy that's been heartbroken, eat sleep and next day, move on.

FAST FOWARD.

I was the only lucky (gay)guy in our class to have my internship with Summit Media, under Men's Health Magazine. One of the perks I enjoyed was my first ever photoshoot, and my first will be forever a memorable one. I was able to meet the stylist John, and was actually surpised he's almost as young as me. We talked about things, and when he asked where I came from, I told him I'm from Laguna, he told me his partner during that time was also from Laguna, and yes, you guessed it right; JELO.

Small note on my Small World; The make up artist, SABS(lady beside me), is Champ Lui-Pio's close friend, lead vocalist of the band HALE. They just finished their interview from an MTV show that I forgot.

*My first photoshoot at Men's Health.

Thinking aloud

Life indeed is a "small world," it may hurt, it may be a reason to smile, it may surprise you but these are the little things that makes our life interestingly... SMALL. I believe GOD created these small world moments just to make us smile, because the best way to make us smile is when we're caught off guard, when we're not aware, and the least we expect it. I wonder what's your small world moment...

What if my body can talk to me?

“He/it slept the whole day sat night,sunday and monday, at ngayon inaantok pa din
siya?!Naman!(and now, he/it’s still sleepy! My gosh!)”

NOTE: He/It pertains to my body.

Okay, I can probably ask for an apology from him/it, let’s name my body; “Body.”

Okay, I admit I haven’t been good to Body since my college days, making him stay up late,
and lack sleep, and make him eat unhealthy food. When I was in my 3rd and 4th year, I told
myself I’ll be living a healthier life during my working days since I have the money to make him
eat healthy food. Right now, my diet is not perfect, but at least he’s eating healthier than
before.

However, this semester, I never expected that I’ll be stressed out than ever. I was able to go to
school before and be awake for 24 hours. Now, I pushed my limit and Thursday night, I have
my shift until Friday morning, Friday morning, after my “dinner,” I then finished my report for
my Saturday class. That’s up until Friday in the afternoon, and then prepare for my Friday shift. My Friday shift ends at 6am and then, I rush to PUP-Graduate School, in Sta. Mesa for my class; 3 subjects for the day. First class- information and Communication Technology, reporting. Second subject- lecture and exam. Third subject- lecture. After that, my classmates and I went to Cubao since I need to buy a cake for Jeff’s mom at bread Talk, then, MRT travel to Makati, and ride the bus in Buendia en route to San Pablo City, Laguna. That’s non stop.

How was I able to survive this? Enervon Ion, revicon Max, and tons of coffee! Oh, not to
mention, drinking lots of water to keep you hydrated, eating more in smaller intervals, and lots of shaking of heads. In addition to that, my professor, a head of the Arts and Culture and Theatre thingie, have this thing where good looking high school/college guys visit him every now and then; it helped too.

When I arrived at their place, I was dead hungry, tired and haggard! I ate like there’s no tomorrow and didn’t get the chance to remove my pants and slept while my bf carried me and arranged me to bed. I woke up around 9am and went down for breakfast, it was heaven! I really like Tita Madel’s home cooking since you can feel the love and care in her cooking. Sunday afternoon, we went back to Makati and we thought that the 2 hour travel will enable our body to rest and at least let us attend the evening mass; or so we thought. When we reached our humble abode, we were dead sleepy. LITERALLY changed our clothes, washed our face and slept dead!

As I am typing this entry, I just regained my strength since half of the shift I was sleepy and was sleeping in “vacant” times. I was talking to my friend and we were wondering, what if my body can talk to me and say what they feel. She said this is what Body will tell me.
“ABUSADO KA KUYA! Lol “

Yeah, I guess I’ve abused my body too much; big time. Have I told you I’ve already done this 3
times already? Yes, 3 Thursdays to Saturdays awake, that’s why I think Body is currently upset.

I just hope after my masters I can make it up to him since I’m still working out and will be
going back to yoga this summer.

Can I say sorry?

Pwede naman mag sorry di ba? (I can say sorry right?)

icebag/elbi pie quotes

*Credit goes to our very own, LB owned Ma'am Layeta "Lalie" Bucoy for her great ICEBAG series.
grabbed from http://entrelanoche.multiply.com/

Next year is the 10th year of that series which i'd like to think still tries to capture facets of a uplb student's life ... i've seen several posts on the net quoting certain lines from the plays, the teasers, and even the greetings ... since most of them came from me, i've listed those i could recall ... as to those already buried in oblivion, feel free to resurrect them (even those i deliberately buried) ... With ngayon o bukas for background music, here goes my journey to a decade of aaaw inducing lines:

1. "eto, ibigay mo sa kanya. mahilig s'ya d'yan. h'wag kang magulat. marunong din akong magmahal."

2. "mamili ka: malinis kang bumagsak o marumi kang pumasa."

3. "ayaw mo sa bakla, tanggap ko ‘yon. Gusto mong mamundok, Go! Gawin mo ang gusto mo, iwasan mo ako hangga’t gusto mo, pero hindi mo mapipigilang mahalin kita."

4. "May ipagagawa ka pa ba sa akin para sukatin ang pagmamahal ko sa ‘yo?"

5. "Haller!? Ako ba naiintindihan mo! Ngayon lang may nagmahal sa akin, ngayon lang may nakikinig sa akin. Alam mo ba kung ga’no katagal kong pinagdarasal na dumating ka sa buhay ko?"

6. "Maraming mukha ang pag-ibig. Ito ang pinili ko. Ibibigay ang lahat-lahat."

7. "Dito, sa ibang lugar, napakawalan ko na ang tanging nagmahal sa akin."

8. "Sana h’wag mo sa akin ibigay ang lahat. Magtira ka ng konti para sa sarili mo. Sa gitna ng mga tunggalian, maganda pa rin ang buhay, hangga’t may pag-ibig, sa anumang mukha nito, sa anumang kulay, sa pinakamarahas mang kahulugan nito."

9. "I was sitting beside you in STS, you never looked at me. I was sitting beside you in NASCI2, you never glanced at me. I was sitting beside you in Math 11, you never noticed me. Now, I’m here, sitting beside you, as we are about to watch the play. The teasers say this is about love. You would have known love. If only you looked beside you."

10. "Sapagkat kaming lahat sa dula ay umibig at nadapa, walang takot kaming babangon upang umibig muli at ibahagi sa inyo ang tamis, ang pait, ang anghang at ang alat ng pag-ibig."

11. "Habang basa ang katawan n’ya ng nagsanib na pawis, hamog at ambon, at basa ang mukha n’ya ng mga luhang ayaw n’ya sanang tumulo, nadama kong kailangan n’ya ng mapag-along kamay, nadama kong kailangan n’ya ng mainit na dibdib. Noon ko s’ya unang minahal."

12. "Hindi na s’ya naalis sa aking isipan. Tumakas ako mula sa piitan ng aking pagka-diyosa. Bumaba ako mula sa aking kabundukan. Sinundan ko s’ya sa Lecture Hall A ng BioSci. Nagpanggap akong estudyante n’ya. Nilapitan n’ya ako. “Ang haba ng buhok natin, ha?” ang sabi n’ya. Ngumiti ako at nagwikang, “Darating ang araw, tayong dalawa, magsasama hanggang sa pagwawakas ng panahon.” Simula no’n, iniwasan na n’ya ako."

13. "Marahil, kahit panawan man ng katinuan, hindi pa rin nakakalimot ang pag-ibig."

14. "Sapagkat ang pag-ibig ay hindi nakakalimot. Walang pag-ibig ang nabubura sa alaala."

15."Babae: H’wag mo akong bilangan ng oras. ComArts ako. Galit ako sa numero. Lalake: Mahal ko ang mga numero. Babae: D’yan ka lang magaling. Sa numero. Lalake: AMath ako. Babae: Syotain mo ang mga numero mo."

16. "Marami na akong pinalampas, marami na akong sinubukan, ngayong natagpuan na kita, ikaw lang ang gusto kong yakapin."

17. "Bagay sa inyo ang de lata. Kulungang lata n’yo ang isa’t isa."

18. "Ok lang kahit marami akong kahati sis, basta mahalin din lang n’ya ako"

19. "Sabi ng mga brods ko, kung ang cellphone daw ay pabago-bago ng modelo, ikaw naman daw pabago-bago ng isip. Mahirap ka raw pakisamahan. Mahirap ka raw mahalin. Pero kung may kailangan ka, sabihan mo lang ako. Kung nalulungkot ka, tawagin mo lang ako. Handa kitang samahan sa lahat ng pagbabago mo, maghirap man ako."

20. "Lalake: (Uupo, kakain) Tapusin na natin ‘to. Babae: Ang pagkain o ang relasyon? Lalake: Pareho.

21. "Inibig kita at inibig mo ako. Noon. Iba na ngayon.

22. "Thea: Bukas muli. Irvine: Alam kong babalik ka. Thea: Hindi ako babalik, Irvine. Hindi bumabalik ang hindi nakaalis. Irvine: H’wag mong ipako ang sarili mo sa pagmamahalan natin. Marami pang iba. Subukan mong umibig sa iba. Thea: Isa lang ang puso ko. Naibigay ko na sa ‘yo."

23. "Ayusin mo ‘yang mukha mo. Ayusin mo ‘yang buhay mo. Hindi dapat pinag-aaksayahan ng luha at lalo na ng buhay ang isang lalakeng ayaw naman sa ‘yo at wala namang pakialam sa luha at buhay mo. LAlake lang s’ya, maraming lalake."

24. "Nagsasawa rin ang pagmamahal. sawa na ako sa 'yo"

25. "Di tulad ni darna, di mo na kailangan ng bato. umibig ka lang, lulutang ka." edited: "hindi mo na kailangang lumunok ng bato para lumipad...umibig ka lang ... pustahan tayo lulutang ka" (limot ko na talaga hahaha)

26. "Ganyan ang banga, nakatayo o nakabaligtad man, handang manilbihan. Parang ako, walang pinipiling pwesto. Parang pag-ibig ko, walang pinipiling kondisyon."

27. "Then be my prince charming. Give me my happy ending

28. "Lahi kayo ng mga sugarol. At sabi mo, ang pag-ibig ay sugal."

29. "Ang pag-ibig ay para lamang sa matatapang."

30. "Punta na akong Baker. Aayusin ko pa ang rebound ko. Siguro mas magaling akong magrebound ngayon. Sinanay mo na ako. Ginawa mo na akong rebound."

31. "Napaunawa ko na sa ‘yo ang sarap at ligaya ng pag-ibig. Iisa na lamang ang natitira pang maaari kong ipaunawa sa ‘yo. Ipapaunawa ko sa ‘yo ang kung paanong masaktan."

32. "BL: Tingnan mo ang spaghetti, buhol-buhol ang mga noodles, mapula ang kulay, parang dugo. Ganyan sa pag-ibig, buhol-buhol ang mga buhay, madugo dahil maraming dalang pasakit. Pero tinikman mo, masarap, kadalasan parang ayaw mo nang tigilan. Tikman mo ang spaghetti. MB: Ikaw ang may paborito sa spaghetti. BL: Hanapin mo ako, kung handa mo nang tikman ang spaghetti. "

33. "Parang pagsalo lang sa tinapong bola. Saluhin mo rin ako, takot na akong magpagulong-gulong sa kalungkutan."

34. "Naghanap pa s'ya ng iba, nandito naman ako, 24 hours available, parang mercury drug."

35. "Ikaw na dahilan ng lahat ng luhang sinalo ng aking unan, ikaw pa rin ang alaalang kukumot sa akin, sa mga gabing malamig ang pag-iisa" PAHABOL

36. "Sisisirin ko ang impiyerno, makikipagbuno ako sa mga diyablo, upang sa huli, perlas kang aking hahanguin"

37. Noon, mahal kita. ngayon, mahal na mahal kita.' PAHABOL ULI 38. "Iced tea dapat 'yan pero di ko pinalagyan ng yelo. dapat sa 'yo mainit. masyado nang malamig ang puso mo."

39. "Nirequire kaming manood ng romeo and juliet. akala ko, makikilala ko na rin ang pag-ibig. pero wala akong naramdaman. wala ka sa tabi ko."

40. "Kahit ano'ng gawin ng taong mahal ka, walang panama sa sandaling matingnan ka lang ng taong mahal mo."

41. "Ito ang sandaling lagi kong babalik-balikan."

43. "I think that i shall never see a poem as lovely as a tree, and the turtle said snap, snap, not yet rizal, not yet, london bridge is falling down, falling down, falling down, jack en jill went up the hill, falling down, falling down, alagang-alaga namin si puti, bakang mataba, bakang maputi, bigyan mo ng tubig, inom, inom, inom, bigyan mo ng damo, nguya, nguya, nguya, the road less traveled by 'ronald prost' "

44. "Hindi nagtatapos ang pag-ibig sa kamatayan, tulad ng kaluluwa, patuloy itong mabubuhay, lumilipad dahil hindi nakukulong sa katawan"

45. "Wala sa mga tinginan ang pag-ibig, wala sa mga luha, wala sa mga pantasya. ang pag-ibig ay nasa hawakan ng kamay, haplusan ng balat, halikan ng labi"

46. "Pinagtitiisan kong makinig sa mga kwento mo tungkol sa sorority n'yo at sa pagpapacute mo kay Boy C dahil gusto kong inaamoy ang hininga mo" (lekat, pathetic! wahaha)

47. "Gene: 'Yan ba ang gusto mo Mackie?
Mackie: 'Yan ang gusto ko sa isang babae.
Gene: E sa isang bakla, ano ang gusto mo?
Mackie: Hindi ako bakla.
Gene: Don't you want to try? "

48. "I know love. I know how to love. I will love!"

49. "Babalik at babalik din ako sa 'yo"

50. "Why don't we make it a lifetime?
why don't we make it forever?" (ahaha mushy kung mushy!)

51. "Mahilig ka talaga sa malamig.
bakit ikaw, hindi ka ba mahilig sa malamig?
mahilig din, pero mas mahilig ako sa mainit,lalo na 'yung mainit na lumalamig dahil napapabayaan "

52. "Magkikita pa tayo, paulit-ulit mo man akong tanggihan, paulit-ulit mo man akong iwan, sa huli, mahal pa rin kita"

53. "Hindi dahil makabayan ka, magiging manhid ka na.
hindi dahil nagbirthday ka, magiging sentimental ka na. (koneksyon?! wahaha)

54. "Hahabulin mo pa rin ba s'ya hanggang sa bundok?
hihintayin ko na lang s'ya rito, nakakapagod din ang humabol.
napapagod na rin ako.

55. "Wala na akong mahalungkat sa unit, wala ka nang ibang gamit. di ko malaman kung saan pa ako maghahanap ng pag-ibig"

56. "Hindi pa ako nag-be-breakfast, lunch at dinner kakasunod sa 'yo. pag-ibig man, nagugutom din." (natawa talaga ako rito)

57. "Ito ang tunay na pag-ibig, gumagapang sa balat, tumatagos sa laman"

58. "Wala lang. gusto lang kitang makita. hindi kita nakita last week ,e. pero natanggap ko 'yung a la mode. the best a la mode in this side of paradise. ang tamis-tamis. ang sarap-sarap. galing sa 'yo."

59. "Mahirap magasgas ang kaha ng ref., mahirap magkalamat. parang sa tao, 'pag nagasgasan ang puso, nagkakalamat ang damdamin, sisingaw ang galit, mapapawi ang pag-ibig"

60. "Hayaan mong ako na lang ang magkasala. ganyan kita kamahal."

61. "In your case, i'd rather die than rot with you"

62. "Ngayon, ang alam ko lang, handa na akong hamakin ang mga bituin"

63. "H'wag ka nang magpasalamat sa tatlong diskette.napasaya mo na rin naman ako. patas na tayo."

64. "Dahil sa 'yo, marami akong nakilalang emosyon"

65. "Ibaba mo naman ang ulo mo, lumingon ka naman sa kanan mo, baka sakali, makita mo ako at ang pag-ibig ko"

66. "Lahat ng bago pinatos ko, pero bumabalik ang isipan ko sa luma, bumabalik sa 'yo"

67. "Kung ang mabigat na banga di ko kayang bitawan, ang pag-ibig pa kaya?"

68. "Rapist ka ba?"

69. "Lalake: Naiisip mo ba ang naiisip ko?
Babae: Di na maibabalik ang mga panahong nagdaan.
Lalake: At ang panahon pang natitira? "

70. Babae: Handa ka na ba?
Lalake: Nakatayo o nakahiga?
Babae: Nakatayo. Nakatingin sa isa’t isa.
Lalake: Para sa buong panahong hindi natin tiningnan ang isa’t isa.

71. "Sige, gawin mo akong tanglaw, tulad ng mga gabing ikaw ang tala sa aking kalangitan"

72. Junel: Sana pala hindi na tayo umorder.
Diana: Nagmamadali ka?
Junel: Sayang ang panahon.
Diana: Lagi ka na lang nagmamadali.
Junel: Lagi akong nahuhuli.
Diana: Ako ang late. Nag-make up class pa kasi ako.
Junel: Lagi akong nahuhuli.
Diana: Ako nga ang –
Junel: Pagdating sa ‘yo.


73. Kiko: Sana hindi ka mabulag sa liit ng mga letra at kapal ng nobelang ito.
Rand: Ano ba ako sa ‘yo.
Kiko: Ang nobelang gusto ko nang sarhan.

74. "Alam mo ba kung bakit ayoko sa kapeng walang asukal? ayoko sa mapait, parang alaala"

75. "Mas malapit tayo sa isa't isa nu'ng magkalayo tayo"

76. "Pwede ka uling magsign-in sa buhay ko"

77. "Food lang ang nagcocomfort sa akin"

78. "umibig ka na ba?
madalas
and?
wala na silang lahat "

79. "'Pag pinaubaya mo sa iba ang kaligayahan mo, sa tingin mo ba mababawi mo agad 'yon?"

80. "ano ba'ng sikerto ng happiness?
h'wag mong ipahawak sa iba "

81. "Gaya ng pag-inom ko ng kapeng sumisira sa puso ko, h’wag mong bawasan o tigilan ang pagmamahal mo sa kanya, sirain man n’ya ang puso mo.”

82. "Ako ba ang may dala ng bagyo sa buhay mo?"

83. "Maging ang bisig ay napapagod din sa pagyakap"

84. “Tingnan mo ang mga piraso ng paso, buuin mo man, may lamat na. ‘Yan ang ginawa mo sa akin.”

85. "Minahal. Tandaan mo sana. Minahal. Tapos na ‘yon.”

86. "Ang naiintindihan ko lang, gusto kong lumigaya ka.”

87. "Nakabantay ako sa 'yo, hinihintay na makalimot ka"


88."Sa ‘yo lang ako magpapahuli, magpapakulong, hawla ko ang iyong puso, bawat tibok nito ang aking hininga. Pagkat ako ay ibong naghahanap ng pugad, at ikaw ang punong nais maging kaulayaw. "

89. Kaya lumuluha muli ako, walang-patid, habang nagmumumog.

90. . Pero di bale, di baleng 300 pesos a month na lang ang load ko at nang-aagaw na ako ng mga celfones ng mga kakilala ko para lang maitext s’ya, di baleng sa ukay-ukay na lang ako bumibili ng mga damit, di baleng naliligo na ng kiwi ang sapatos ko dahil nagiging mestizo na sila’t kailangan ko silang panatilihing baluga, di baleng naputulan na ako ng internet, telepono, tubig, kuryente at buhok dahil di ko na rin maafford ang shampoo and conditioner. Basta’t kasama ko lang si Joe.

91. Hindi mo alam, buo ang katawan ko, hindi lang ako pwet, hindi lang ako bunganga.

92. para sa bente pesos, para na rin akong sirkera.

93. Hindi man ako sumama sa iyong libingan, kasama ka sa aking bawat paghinga.

94. From 0919*******. Minsan ang pagkakaibigan parang hawak na buhangin, di mo napapansin nauubos din pala. Sa dami nga naman ng buhangin sa paligid mo, mapapansin mo kaya kung mawawala ako sa pagkakahawak mo?

95. Diana: Itanim mo na lang sa paso.
Semi: Magpupumilit kumawala sa paso ang mga ugat ng Doña Luz .
Diana: Hindi s’ya makakawala.
Semi: Babasagin n’ya ang paso.
Diana: Hindi mababasag ang paso.
Semi: Kaya n’yang basagin ang paso.
Diana: At ‘pag gumapang na s’ya?
Semi: Babantayan ko, aalagaan, aalalayan. Mamahalin.

96. Hindi ako bakla. Lalake akong umiibig sa ‘yo.

97. Inumpog ko ng inumpog ang ulo n'ya sa kubeta. di na n'ya mamulat ang mga mata n'ya. "masaya ka na ba?" tanong n'ya. "hindi pa rin." at muli ko s'yang inumpog.

98. Nakita ni Mang Mar ang pagtataka sa aking mata. Bakit hindi man lang nagkakagulo ang mga tao? “Galit kasi sila sa kanya, e” sabi ni Mang Mar. Naawa ako sa kanya. Noon ko s’ya unang minahal.

99. Sinundan ko s’ya. Narinig ko ang sabi ng mga doktor. Kailangan n’ya raw ng bone marrow transplant upang mabuhay. Diyosa lang ako. Wala akong buto. Wala akong maitulong.

100. Bakit may katawang nakakaadik?

101. Sa gabi, kukumutan n’ya s'ya at papaypayan hanggang sa makatulog ito. Tatabihan n’ya ito at yayakapin. “Kung hindi mo man ako magawang mahalin kung gising tayo, siguro kahit man lang sa panaginip, mahalin mo ako,” ang ibubulong n'ya bago makatulog.

102. “Multo na ako,” sabi n'ya. “Sayang,” patuloy n’ya, “namatay na ako’t lahat, hindi mo pa rin ako nagawang mahalin.”

103. Magkadaiti ang mga labing sinalubong nila ang bukang-liwayway. Siguro, ang pag-ibig, kahit di hanapin, kahit di asamin, kusang dumarating, kusang sumisilay, tulad ng bukang-liwayway, kahit pa mahaba ang iyong tutsang.

104. Ang pipiliin mo’y hindi ang nais mong bigyan ng lahat-lahat, ang pipiliin mo’y ang magagawang ibigay sa ‘yo ang lahat-lahat, tulad ng isang utusan para sa kanyang hari.


105. Ilang tao ang nagkakaroon ng bagong pag-asa dahil sa akin.

106. Gusto mo lang bilangin ang mga buhok n’ya sa katawan, bawat balahibo, bawat kulot at tuwid, wala kang palalampasin. Hindi na mahalaga sa ‘yo kung mahalin ka man n’ya. Hindi na mahalaga sa ‘yo kung pansinin ka n’ya. Walang mahalaga sa ‘yo kundi ang bawat malalaman mong detalye sa kanyang katawan, ang bawat malalaman mong detalye sa kanyang buhay. Ganyan ako magmahal.

107. tinig pa lang n'ya napapayapa na ang puso mo

108. Dahil sa kanya pinalayas ka ng mga magulang mo. Dahil sa kanya hindi ka na nakagraduate. Dahil sa kanya kinailangan mong magtrabaho sa call center. Dahil sa kanya nangayayat ka, nagdusa, naghirap, nasaktan. Hindi mo s’ya magawang masisi. Dahil sa kanya, lumigaya ka, kahit saglit.

109. Walang gabing hindi ka n’ya binubugbog. Walang araw na wala kang pasa. Walang bahagi ng katawan mong walang latay galing sa kanyang sinturon. Mata mo na lang ang hindi dumurugo. Pero hindi ka pa rin bumibitiw sa kanya. Handa kang magtiis. Sa hirap at ginhawa. Sa sakit at kalusugan. Hanggang sa kamatayan.

110. Nakikita ko kayo kahit hindi n’yo ako nakikita. Pinagmamasdan ko ang bawat galaw n’yo, alam ko ang bawat ikilos n’yo. Nagmamasid ako kahit hindi n’yo ako pinagmamasdan. Nakaantabay, nakaalalay, tama na sa akin ang makita ko kayo kahit matagal n’yo na akong kinalimutan. Hindi ba, ako ang tunay na pag-ibig?

111. Humihingi nga ng kiss, ‘yun ba ang galit?

112. Ang dami kong kasinungalingan. Parang napakamakasarili ko na. Nakakakonsensya rin. Pero mas mahalaga ka sa konsensya ko.

113. Mahirap mahalin ang walang nagmamahal.

114. Kesa naman sa naging sigurista nga s’ya, habang-buhay naman s’yang hindi liligaya kasi wala na s’yang gagawin kundi magplano at maghanda.

115. Bago rin lang ako sa ganitong klase ng relasyon pero ang alam ko, ang hindi hinahawakan, hinahagkan o niyayakap . . . pinandidirihan.

116. s'ya nga pala, may ibibigay ako sa 'yo. ang puso ko.

117. Wala akong dinedehado lalo na sa pag-ibig

118. Look, I’m rich, I’m intelligent and I’m beautiful. Obviously I’m perfect. Ang gusto ko lang naman ay ang makapantay ka sa akin. So if you can’t handle perfection, get lost!

119. ) Paulit-ulit kong sinasabing mahal kita. Gusto ko sana, ‘yun ang huling marinig mo. Gusto ko sana tinig ko ang dumuyan sa ‘yo patungong langit.

120. hindi ko kayang sabihing hindi na kita mahal. kung dumating man ang sandaling 'yon, tatahimik lang ako.

121. bakit ba kailangang magmukhang pathetic ka kakahabol sa kanya? bakit ba kailangang ipagduldulan mo ang sarili mo sa kanya? nandito ako. ako ang talagang nagmamahal sa 'yo.

122. i am magic personified.

123. habang lumalapit ako, lumalayo ka naman.

124. pinakiusapan nila akong h'wag ka na raw gambalain. hindi ako makakapayag. hindi napapakiusapan ang pag-ibig.

125. nangangailangang maramdaman ang init ng pagmamahal upang mapawi ang lamig ng mga gabing alaala lamang ang kayakap.

126. ibalibag mo sa kanya ang kahayupan mo.

127. Naiimagine ko na kung ano kayang pakiramdam ng mga labi mo sa balat ko.


128. I broke up with my girlfriend for I can’t get another girl out of my mind. I found another girl. I found you

129. Malay ko bang di lang hymen ko ang babasagin mo? Pati puso ko pala, di ko na tuloy mabuo ang mga bubog

130. Sa sobrang ‘pag shine ng armor mo, nasilaw ako’t di ko na nakitang balak mo pala akong gawing prinsesang gusgusin.

131. Wala naman palang laman ang dibdib mo. Parang ulo mo, walang laman

132. Humindig s’ya sa aking dibdib. Sa posteng dati’y nadaraanan ko lamang sa aking pag-uwi sa boarding house, niyakap ko ang babaeng hindi ko maintindihan, habang naririnig n’ya ang tibok ng aking puso

133. Dalhan mo naman ako ng bulaklak. ‘Yung puting-puti, ‘yung parang ang linis-linis. Para sa kabila ng mga kababuyan ko sa buhay, baka-sakali, sa kamatayan, luminis din ako.


Thanks ma'am Lalie!