Wednesday, September 29, 2010

weekend retreat and weekend date

Last weekend (Sept 26,27,2010) was rather, an experience to remember. It was my first time to join the MCCPH Retreat that was held at Pansol Calamba City, Laguna. I actually didn’t know to expect, and that made me really excited. Since my churchmates were my old housemates and people who are familiar with AKik’s (a 24 hour gotohan in PRC; where they serve delicious silog meals!), since it will be my first time to taste their pansit, I bought 2 pansit bihon, 2pansit canton and 1 pansit miki bihon. I then reached the destination after a couple of hours travel and to my surprise I saw straight guys, black sando, cooking, what seems to be our breakfast. I asked IPL (Interim Pastor Leader) Egay who they were and said the guys were their seamen that are waiting to be boarded, so they’re helping with the cooking, since they’re doing nothing yet. Wahahahha!! No comment.

I went to look for my ex housemate Jed and found that he’s preparing for the first activity. The usual routine for seminars, knowing thyself, knowing others, knowing the group, etc. started the retreat, and what made me smile was the group activity where we need to do puzzles. I LOVE puzzles! I already completed a 1000 pcs jigsaw puzzles before with Tommy! And from then on, I got addicted! Since I don’t have the budget (yet) for new ones, I’m saving up for a box (okay, I’m digressing). Anyway, our group was the first one to finish our piece, since Gina, my groupmate was also fond of puzzles, plus our ever-intelligent Ptr. Regen realized that some of the pieces were missing, and we found our pieces from other groups. We helped them out to finish their puzzles and look for the missing ones.

The meal was super! Diet was a taboo that weekend, we ate, no, we slobbed our way through the meals! They ate like me! Haha! When the sun came down, it was time to discuss the history of the MCC Church and share the “history.” I already have a background of what happened, but I never got the clear idea on what REALLY happened. Starting with Fr. Mickley until today, I was able to hear everything on what happened. That night, a couple of students came and Jed gave them a crash course on what we did during the day. He hated me and Roy for sleeping through the activity! Haha! Roy and I were dead tired and didn’t notice we were already zombiefied and walked through our rooms and slept.

That morning, thank GOD I got my daily dose of protein from TAHO! I forgot to bring my Soya milk so I gulped 2 glasses of hot warm TAHO! Breakfast was served and again, I just told myself I’ll run double this week at the gym! Hehe…

It was now time to discuss about Homosexuality and the Bible. I already have an idea on what was the issue during my previous membership class before joining MCC, but this time was better since we were able to dissect the issues of Homosexuality not being a sin or a sickness. What I love about Ptr. Regen’s discussion was the research done.

There were a couple of verses that were discussed and per group; they will have to answer why it was incorrect. The participants were surprised how one word can change the history. I’ll just then post a separate entry about this one. NOSEBLEED.

After the discussion, we then prepared for lunch and the Worship service. It was a surprise to us the old members that we were just expecting 4 members, but lo and behold; in front of us are 11 –ONSE –LABING ISA - ELEVEN new members that wanted to join our family. Everything’s falling into place, this was one of those “the secret” moments I was thinking before. We were happy preparing for our trip back to Manila.

I then went to meet Kojie at Glorietta for a date. It was a long time before we enjoyed each other’s company. We decided to watch Legend of the Guardians, and bought our signature pre film watching meal: World Chicken, 1 order of Potdog Fried Siomai, Biggie Iced tea! We used to buy frosty as well, but this time, we decided to try Beard Papa’s cream puff . Scale of 1 to 5, it’s a 3. It was still early so we roam around the mall, window shopping, and decided to stay at Timezone for a couple of games. It was rather odd since there weren’t that much people on a Sunday evening. I was able to play this:

Kojie was teasing me since I was struggling with the screen since it was my first time, thanks to my bestfriend BALUGA for introducing me this game! It was fun and not to mention the music was nice! I wanna download them!It was then his turn to play, concentrating, he wasn't able to stop me from taking his pic. Aminin nyo, cute sya dito!

After the movie, we went home, and ended the night with a kiss, a hug closed eyes and cuddled to slumber while holding hands.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Ugly Segue

"Last published Sept 07,2010"

Anong petsa na… Di pako nakakakpag sulat ulit ng entry, was it because husband and I fought? (Already kissed and make up), was it because the duties at work? (it’s not that busy,duh), was it because the activities during weekends? (Grandma’s 40 days, Photography workshop, etc).

I guess boredom. One of my predicaments is being “talkative” with my entries. For some reason, I can’t write “just a couple of sentences” when I do my blogs. Actually, it already lessened. I can’t believe I wrote all my college blogs at my old Livejournal when I was still doing my internship at Summit media. Plus, I’m more of a photo person; I’d rather take pictures and them tell my stories that’s why I’m more active (before) at multiply.

Before the internet, I used to write entries in my journal. Informal ones like one liners on what happened that day. However, I tried hard, but for some reason, I can’t sustain it. I’ll start off during January and I’d miss a couple of entries, until on the 3rd or 4th month. On the 5th month, I already left my journal at home.

What drives me to write back? For a not so typical guy like me: emotions. That’s where I get my drive from. Angst, happiness, sadness, excitement, lust, guilt, depression, I use these and more and cook something special to write. For some reason, emotions call upon the words and then will flow out my hands to type here. Add up my living contradiction of an English teacher with lots of grammatical errors, wrong spellings and word usage, voila!?

I’m actually at work typing this and already on my nth account, and I need to release. Not that kind of release green mongrels!? I just calmed my heart down from palpitation. Here’s why.

“You really don’t know how to write formal letters..” A colleague just told me, and its true. I have to re write and think about it like ten thousand times or more. I just finished sending an email to my supervisor, retracting my initiative to coach one of my colleagues who is somewhat slow. Let’s call him SABAW. Sabaw is married and has a daughter, from the start, he’s a good talker, and everyone fell for his cover up. When it was time to hit the floor, after his training, we noticed a slight change.

Same mistakes EVERYDAY, same pathetic, stupid, common sense-ly mistakes. Those kind of mistakes that you’ll really want to strangle him with. Those kind of mistakes that would loose the company thousands… THOUSANDS Of DOLLARS…those kind of mistakes that you (and your team) already told him not to do, will still do anyway, reminded him not to, and still do it some more, and those kind of mistakes that ain’t funny. I’m curious why the hell is he still doing this even if we already sent him coaching opportunities like hundreds everyday, and the same mistakes again and again. But wait, there’s more! It evolves to different sorts; to what looks like manipulating his stats, wreaking havoc to accounts, and by keeping the same accounts and just pending them everyday, so that it will count to his accounts worked.

You see, we’re a small group in our team, and what I love about my team is the open communication between all of us. If one commits a mistake, you can send a coaching opportunity to that person and vice versa, plus, the newbies are already improving. I told my colleagues that whenever I think of him, he reminds me of the song “Everyday’s a new day…” (when you watch at Ayala cinemas before the movie? That song…)

The first day of our coaching session, I asked him what drives him to work; he said it was his daughter. However, I want to know more why he’s not doing his job well, my first step that time was befriend him and try to get to the bottom (Sniggers) why he’s not motivated. Today was supposedly my second coaching to him, but my whistle blew.

He sent me an email reply on why he didn't visit me on my bay.

Here was his reply:
"Our coaching session is 1:30 to 2:00 from the last time we talked if you take a look at your screen shot it would indicate the time.
Next you never mentioned that our coaching is at 1:45 -2:15 you said “mamaya na “

1. Yes you did say that already, I received the email also,
2. Mistake accepted will remember next time
3. I will make notes next time
4. Yes it’s the bay area please to the time we agreed which is 1:30-2:00 please look closely at your screenshot

Yes I made the mistakes could you please double check the dates
“Please adhere to our agreed schedule if you cannot follow the schedule let us coordinate with “supervisor’s name” to re-schedule”

I was red mad...

I replied,
I would like to clarify that this INITIATIVE is to HELP you, but it seems you’re unAPPRECIATIVE and you can’t comprehend what we were trying to say;
If you check the invitation I sent you and READ it in detail, you will see that the Coaching Session will actually start 01:45 to 02:15. I already placed that there because I know you want details. If you check Microsoft Outlook Scheduler, there’s no 01:45 to 02:15 time.
You want notes? Here’s what we’ve talked about.

Sabaw’s Schedule
Every Wednesday
09:45 to 06:45
2345-0000H – 1st break
0145H-0215H - coaching
Sun Monday off

My Schedule
0145H-0215H - coaching

Last Note, it’s not illegal to use common sense

My colleagues were laughing when they saw the e-mail, they told me to change it to:

I’m retracting my initiative to coach Sabaw, I don’t I’m in the best position to coach him at this point.
I’ve already tried but I don’t believe it is working and its becoming unhealthy for both of us.
It would be best to have you as our RTM to continue the coaching sessions with him.

Thank you and I appreciate the opportunity that you’ve given me.


I would like to clarify that this INITIATIVE is to HELP you.

I would like to clarify some things, you told me that …

I never felt angry like this before. My heart was pounding so fast, my hands were trembling and cold, my colleagues were already worried, so one of them asked me to wash my face. It helped, but just for a bit. Supervisor logged me out and asked what happened and relayed the story.

I kept quiet and just let them talk, I just answered when they were asking something, but I was talking or rather screaming in my head...

"YOU Moron!? I did this because I want you to improve?! I'm not paid for this extra work stupid!? I'd rather leave you and do everything I can so boss can fire you!?"

Before the end of the shift, he sent me an apologetic email; I didn’t reply. He then approached me and asked for an apology. I told him this is not the right time to talk, as I’m not emotionally prepared. (Sorry, bakla lang!)

I didn’t finish my quota for today as I’m really driven to pour this out.

Whuuuuusa!!! Happy ThoughtS!

Again, my sincerest apology for that ugly segue, I just need to let my hands do the typing...

Will post something to smile about soon.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

What happened last Weekend?

Husband and I went to Mega to buy my new gadgie for my Sun Number; Davixz!

Then off I went to MCCPH 19th Anniversary Party.

Entry to be posted soon. Sorry guys, kinda busy; Houseband status.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

The Last Straw

My shoulder hurts as I just finished a gruelling 2 or 3 hours of work out. However, it won’t hurt that much creating this profile for a simple reason; lack of respect. From the start, I didn’t want another social network profile. I’ve had enough. I’m contented with multiply, blogspot, and my mini micro PLU sites.

It was then agreed (since we were “required” by the school for my Masters to have a FB account) that we’ll be creating a couple or rather, a joint account. However, it was the last straw. I MAGICALLY got untagged just because I was sooooooooo little in the picture. We already talked about this before. One event status became MAGICALLY not attending. There were A LOT of previous things that MAGICALLY happen, or disappear without me being informed.

Anyway, it was you who pushed this to be created, and you already know the circumstances and the consequences, I told you, I’m here to make you happy, but it doesn’t necessarily mean I’ve changed. I’m still that nice boy if you’re nice, be the opposite and you‘ll know what.

I’ll just make this short since there will be new notes that will come our way. Meantime, this will serve as a warning, and a reminder that I love you, but I have my limit.

You shouldn't worry though, I still will be the one to cook for you as I have promised, make you giggle before you sleep, I'll make sure you're smiling before you close your eyes, and will be doing that until your hair is white. So don't fret.


*This post was posted on my newly opened facebook account. Add up guys...